This season has shown an awful disgraceful side of you.

Last season - I would have loved to have met you and thought you were so fun and chic. What happened to you?

Jill Are you kidding me with the whole Bethenny wouldnd talk off camera!!!! YOU put everything on camera..Hello the voice mail which you saved for 3 months,,Really..come Jill. Enough with acting this way...You are more to blame then anybody..You dish it out but cant take it.. You shouldnt be on the show if thats how your gonna be.

Oh Jill, you just refuse to admit fault. Don't you see that you've been the mean girl all season?

You were devastated by the message Alex delivered. Fair enough - even she admits it was done in a harsh way. But will you EVER acknowledge that you've caused devastation in Bethenny's life over and over? Probably not. Because you refuse to admit that you are the one who has instigated all of this trouble.

Additionally, Alex gave you many opportunities to apologize for your rude comments. Instead you say things like "well, yes, you attacked me, but it's OK, I've forgiven you. I'm over it." Do you realize it's not your job to be "over it" when it was you who did the hurting in the first place?

You're a mean girl, Jill Zarin. You have a lot of growing up to do.

Jill, Oh there you are, where have you been for the last 2 weeks. One wonders what is going thru your head. But then again your actions speak loud then....you.. Look around you, I think you are drawing in toxic people and are blinded by your intentions. It is really sad what has happened between you and B. Hopefully now you can realize what was pent up in Alex. Here's a bit of advise, when passing by a mirror, stop and really take a look. Look in that mirror before all the makeup and disguise is put on. Look for that person Bobby fell in love with. Why is Bravo interviewing you for a blog? Where are your comments from the heart?

what about you neglecting to talk to bettheney for 3 times o fher reaching out 2 u???????????????

Jill, I wish you would learn from all of this, and realize that you should try to stop spinning things, and just deal with the facts. No matter how often you repeat this, it is irrelevant that B did not want to speak to you off camera. This is irrelevant!

You are on a show, and everything happens on camera! Seeing how you twist things, I see why she wanted the camera there. What is certain is that her tears were real.

Do stop repeating the same thing, and Do start listening to the viewers. We are unanimous on this one...you have been selfish!

Jill

You told Bethanny "we are done" first. So what is the problem?

It was cruel of Alex to tell you in front of everyone what Bethenny said. I felt very bad for you, even though you've been not so nice yourself this year.

I'm hoping ya'll will start being nicer to each other all the way around and we can see you doing fabulous fun stuff again.

I LOVE YOU, YOU ARE AMAZING

This is a weird blog, Jill, this Q&A format. Just speak honestly & from your heart.

Stay strong Jill. It sounds like you're turning around and the show's been an eye opener for you about who you are and where you take it is up to you. Give it some time and things will work out. Riding the popularity roller coaster is a character builder and you'll be back on top. Rienne

Jill, while I whole heartedly sympathize with your embarrassment over what Alex says I can't help but still feel disappointed in you. You take no ownership or accountability for your actions. You keep saying now that it was just a fight and if you were ever real friends you'd make up, but you made it pretty clear them that you were severing all ties with "toxic" Bethenny. It's a big deal when someone who you thought was a real friend not only says "we're done", but also does everything possible to prove that your friendship is in fact done. You got up and walked away everytime she got anywhere near you, rebuffed any and every attempt she made to talk it out and used all opportunities to share with others how bad of a person and friend she is. I don't really blame her for wanting to remove that negativity from her life. I used to love, love you Jill. I thought you had a good head on your shoulders and would always try to have the best intentions, but I'm just not seeing it this season. Alex was a bit abrupt, but I do not think you are just a blameless victim in all this. Cheers, Jill, I hope you realize that all of this could have been prevented if your actions were different. Also, your "friend" Luann does not have your best interest at heart, maybe it was her you needed to step away from, not B.

If you feel that way about B, then let her go and stop gossiping about it. She's ready to let you go because she doesn't think you're genuine or have sincere motives. She's in a really happy place right now and after everything you've said and done, she doesn't want you to be a part of it.

So move on.

Alex was totally in the wrong. You are a great friend. Don't let what she said upset you. She needs to grow up and learn how to act like an adult.

Jill, you truly were my favorite of ANY housewife, but this season has put all of the NY housewives in their true perspective, meaning, each once of you let everything come to the surface and did not try to hide anything this season.

This season you all were the most comfortable with the camera's in your lives and suddenly so much of yourselves became so bare to the world. The more you tried to cover up, the more you exposed yourselves. This season it seemed we actually got to see and discover more of each one of you and what precisely makes you all tick.

You were so much more in my eyes when you were humble and giving, despite what you got in return, as I truly believed you loved unconditionally. I see this season that unless you are at the center and top of the focus and guest lists and the others under you both socially and every other way, you do all within your power to gain control again or remove them from your life.

You are unable to run with your friends and encourage them to excel, even if that means they might have to drag you on their coat tails as they flourish.

You say you have many friends, but you yourself are a true friend to no one, especially yourself. Friends love without expecting anything in return, except maybe the same sort of unconditional love and support. A friend loves at all times and is there at all times.

Love you Jill and Luann!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jill, I absolutely could not believe you last night. First of all, you sent Bethenny an email and also said how terrible it was that she has her personal life so much in the spotlight. You are one that has so much of you and your family in the spotlight. I could not also believe it when you said that you "didn't do anything to deserve this". Oh my gosh! With the way you talk to and treat people! You have went from my #1 to least favorite! Stop being such a snob and talking about people and every thing they do with such negativity. You are not the perfect one who does everything right!

:-/

Queen of Accountability- take responsibility... You destroyed your friendship because of all your Jill Zarin-ess! Instead of listening to LuAnn and her silliness-you should have listened to Bobby your husband and called Bethenny then for a meeting, instead of after you heard and saw she was engaged-it would have made the congratulations to be more authentic. "Here's What": you only said congratulations so that you didn't "look like a piece s**t" WOW-was Bethenny really your friend or your pet project?!?

FYI: I'm tired of reality 'nars' saying the real me is on the cutting room floor-the producers & editors use what you give them. They don't use voice overs...

Very disappointed with Jill this season. Get over yourself

Never miss the opportunity to show your true colors..Why not say YOU BOTH MADE MISTAKES and leave it at that? oh yeah, no drama.

Jill is this the best you can do for blogging this week? Try again.

Your comments regarding Ramona's skin care line and the event itself were very rude. This was NOT setting an example of appropriate behavior. It's sad that you felt the need to seek retribution for her behavior at the Kodac event.

Im glad you sent her flower with an apology I was sad to see how far you were taking things holding such a grudge and not excepting Bethany's apology. I only hope now she will be able to do what you could not. Relationships ARE important as you said, I do hope the two of you will be able to pass through this and be stronger friends for it!

You keep saying that Bethany wouldn't talk to you in private, yet you have been very public with your problems with her. Why should she talk off camera, when you may spin things your own way when you talk about it? And we all know you would have been telling anyone that would listen. Just admit that you screwed up. You twisted the argument around to make Bethany look bad, wouldn't have anything to do with her when she tried over and over to make things right, and now you've lost a friend and many fans. Until you start owning up to your mistakes, your fans will be the unforgiving ones.

Jill, You are the BEST! Unfortunately I can't watch anymore. Love to you Bobby and Allyson!

Sorry, Jill but the way Alex delivered the message was exactly how it needed to be. You are just too much in every way and needed to be knocked down a peg. When Bethenny tried to reconcile with you, you turned her away each time - - so now you got a taste of your own medicine. You take over every frame you're in - - too much ---too too much!

You really need to get a life outside of your plastic bubble. The world does not revolve around you. You've got a great husband and daughter. That should should satisfy you. However, your negativity towards others and busy body demeanor, tell another story.

ummm...WHY the question and answers???? Can you not write your own blog anymore?

Jill

It was painful to watch you this week- I agree Alex chose the wrong place and the wrong time to deliver the message, but we all know that much of the show is controlled and with all the cameras and microphones there why didn't you ask Alex to go off camera? You are a smart woman so you must have known what was coming-your facial expressions certainly showed that you had some idea that it wasn't going to be pleasant. Just another way you can continue to be a victim and, at the same time, make Bethenny look bad. You are a very clever mean girl!

Seriously...did you just interview yourself for your blog this week? What happened to you? You used to be so freaking cool and put together, but now you just seem to be wigging out. Did you ever consider the possibility that it was your relationship with Bethenny that helped propel you to fame? You, the Countess and Kelly seem more like the three stooges: Bumping into each other, acting ridiculous for the cameras, contributing not-so-much to society. I can't watch this anymore.

All of you need to learn to forgive and forget. All of this fighting is so useless and unhealthy. Once you learn to forgive others than you'll be amazed at how people are so willing to forgive you for your faults or shortcomings. Some of you really are acting as though you're 15 years old. No wonder guys think all women are crazy!

You reap what you sow. I hope you are able to turn it around.

Jill, your blog is a total cop out!!! I know it is hard but you need to get real with yourself and take responsibility for your behavior. You will feel much better about yourself if you do so. You have said many times this season that you are going to be the bigger/better person and so on but that sounds very childish. You should simply be a better version of yourself.

You are not the victim in this situation.

Jill, this is actually my first blog but I had to say that it is all about being able to forgive others so that we too may be forgiven. I hope you canboth work this out. I also hope you receive this because I did post a comment already but I don't see it. Best Wishes

Why does it matter soooooo much if Bethany wanted to talk to you on or off camera at Ramona's - your on a reality show - it is supposed to be on camera! I think that is just an excuse you are using for your bad behavior when she tried to talk to you and you turned her down.

Really Jill? Still beating that dead horse about Bethany refusing to speak to you off-camera? First of all, I don't actually believe the conversation went down as you say. Second of all, you felt perfectly fine numerous times about putting her attempts to speak to you on speaker phone without telling her anyone else was in the room. Why would you think you deserved any sort of privacy?

It is clearly over between the two of you. Do yourself a favor and take responsibility and move on. Everyone will respect you a lot more.

Hello Jill,

Did you really feel like Bethanny was going to be your friend after the way you treated her after she apologized to you numerous amounts of time? I was quite surprised to see that you that you allowed LuAnn, excuse me THE COUNTESS, have such an influence over you this season.Why would let you listen her about her about yourrr relationship with Bethanny that you've been friends with for years?!!! I feel sorry for you that you you've lost such a great friend.

I FEEL YOU'VE HAD A 'BAD RAP' THIS SEASON. YOU AND BETHANY WERE OBVIOUSLY SO CLOSE. IT'S A SHAME OTHERS GOT INVOLVED TO FEED THE WHOLE SITUATION. LU ANNE AND ALEX SEEM TO ACTUALLY ENJOY THE TROUBLES YOU AND 'B' ARE HAVING. THEY WERE ALWAYS ON THE 'OUTSKIRTS' OF IT ALL, AND ARE ENJOYING THIS. GLAD YOU OWNED UP TO THE FACT THAT YOU CANNOT/SHOULD NOT PULL OFF "SNARKY" AS BETHANY CAN WITH HER DRY WIT. I HOPE YOU CAN BECOME FRIENDS AGAIN AND THAT THERE ISN'T TOO MUCH WATER UNDER THE BRIDGE.

Nice try Jill. Too bad your "true colors" have been shining this season.

now you need questions from bravotv to blog? you sure have a whole lot to say on cameras, whatever you lost a great friend

I was shocked at the way Alex came at you last night. I lost all respect for her. You had your reasons for not caring for Bethenny, and I thought Alex should have stayed out of it. Alex also whined about LuAnn. But I don't see that either you or LuAnn has been anything but gracious to Alex. I think Alex is a fool now. Don't let it get to you. I think you're a good person.

Jill-Did it ever occur to you that the reason Bethenny didn't want to talk to you off cameras is because:

1) You played her private voicemail message to you for your pyschic and Lu Ann (not to mention all of the t.v. viewers) and yet you cut off the message, most likely leaving out some key details.

2) Not only did you put Bethenny on speakerphone and not mention that Lu Ann was sitting next to you but you also did the exact same thing to Ramona.

3) You've made a point of letting everyone know that you've done nothing wrong and are a victim in the breakdown of your friendship with Bethenny.

4) Bethenny made several attempts to reconcile, all of which you refused.

Perhaps if you took the time to examine your own behavior more carefully, you would understand why Bethenny is reluctant to talk to you privately.

Bethenny may have her faults (personally I'm on Team Bethenny) but I can't blame her for being DONE with you. You're exhausting and emotionally-draining.

Your husband is a gem! Orange County loves Bobby!

Seems like I recall her asking YOU to go to the bedroom when she first got there.... pleading with you to go to the bedroom... Did I imagine that?

Jill - In the past you were one of my favorite Housewives but honestly, this season has been really hard for me to like you. Yes, the show is edited, etc. I get that. But you contradict yourself so much it is hard to figure you out! B tried numerous times to speak w/ you and you shut her out. You constantly bring up the "ambush" at Ramona's apt and that B wouldn't speak w/ you on camera. From B's perspective I wouldn't speak w/ you either unless I was on camera because you flipflop around. You do not listen. I understand your husband had a serious illness and the stress/strain from that as I've been there and done that. You said that Ramona was rude and embarassed you at the Kodak event and you were going to show her how to act appropriately yet the first thing you do is start in on her promo pic / phamplets. How is that appropriate? You thought just because you congratulated B and J on their engagement that it was thawing?! Give me a break - the girl tried to contact you so many times and you think your one congrats clears it up?! You need to mind your business, congrat your daughter graduating from h.s., get her ready for college, get Ginger trained, take care of your great & fabulous husband and your business ventures. LuAnn is not good for you - watching from the outside in - she loves to stir the pot, step back and watch it boil over. I really hope that you and B can have some type of civil relationship. I know you are happy for her and Jason with the baby coming up - just say that and zip the lip! Leave your sarcastic comments to yourself.

What's with the special treatment towards Jill? What's with the question and answer and not a real blog?

Jill,

You say that Bethany wouldn't talk to you off camera - but in the episode before didn't Bethany call you and ask you to meet her to talk about everything? Talk could have been private - no? Plus to totally contradicted yourself with putting her phone call on speaker for Luanne to hear...

Jill, I don't know what happened but you are coming across as a "mean" girl and won't own up to what you say and do. All the best