Camille Grammer

Camille explains the emotional exhaustion of this episode's events, and rewatching the show

on Nov 11, 2010

Hello to all of the Real Housewives of Beverly Hills Fans everywhere.

I got exhausted just watching the show. It makes me cringe in so many ways.

I just had gotten back from Hawaii and was off to NYC with my family and a few friends. I remember how excited I was to go see my husband and best friend. It had been at least two months since we had seen each other, because of both of our busy schedules.

First, I have to say the apartment was tastefully decorated. It was my first choice when I had gone to NYC apartment hunting with Kelsey a few months earlier. It's funny to watch myself talking about the apartment in this episode because it only proves the cameras can't be there to catch everything. Kelsey was becoming increasingly concerned about the size of the apartment after living there a few months. I was wrong about the square footage. He likes his personal space and with only two thousand square feet or so it was going to be difficult to meet his needs, not to mention the kids. I guess I had internalized Kelsey's concerns and shared them with the camera.

In the few weeks leading to this trip, Kelsey became less interested in when I would be moving to NYC to join him with the kids. The one thing he did share with me was that he was thinking he wanted to move to NYC full time. I told myself he was still in the Honeymoon Phase with his play, but truthfully I realized something was wrong. You know the uneasy feeling that never leaves, it's there when you wake up and there when you go to bed. When I arrived in town I couldn't wait to see him. He just wasn't the same loving partner that had left me a few months before. It was a sad day for me. In spite of my personal disappointment I wanted my children to be happy and enjoy our time together as a family.  And I still had no idea of what would be coming.