Jill Zarin

Jill addresses her and Ramona's issues.

on Jun 3, 2011

I hope everyone had a great holiday weekend. I certainly did!

Bobby's entire family came out to stay with us in the Hamptons, and it was cooking and eating all weekend long. My adorable nieces were there and I recorded some of the cutest videos. I will post one of them on my newsletter this week. To receive my newsletter you can sign up at jillzarin.com. I have been tweeting during the episodes so please follow me on Twitter @jillzarin if you don't already. If you do follow me, thank you!

The one thing I miss about filming is our organized play dates. It was great getting together with Cindy, Kelly and LuAnn last week. We all share true friendships, on and off camera.

Let's get straight to "Rameana."

Building up the courage to even talk to Ramona took a lot out of me. I have really tried to be a better listener and hoped to finally hear what I ever did to Ramona to make her act the way she does towards me. When she told me that she was holding on to a resentment about a sarcastic comment I made to someone at her renewal, honestly I was surprised. Ramona often says "I know I put my foot in my mouth sometimes," but yet she NEVER apologizes. I could bring up lots of petty things she has said about me and to me, but in life you need to let the small stuff go.

All I wanted from Ramona was an acknowledgement that she hurt me deeply and was sorry. That if she could redo that day on the island, she would have tried to help me make peace. I walked into the house that day holding Bobby's hand, with a smile on my face. What did they want me to do? Walk in screaming "I'm sorry! I'm sorry!"

I'd like to address a few of the things Ramona has said about me recently. I am sad to say, Ramona is truly mean and likes to put people down rather than build people up. (Look at the way she treated the young ladies she interviewed earlier this season) She is also a LIAR. She thinks if she says something people will automatically think it is true and sometimes they do. Honestly, I usually don't care about what she is talking about, nor do most of you, but recently she has questioned my honesty and integrity. That is where I draw the line and must respond.

One thing people know about me is that I tell the truth. Ramona is receiving a lot of negative attention due to her own actions and instead of listening and learning from watching herself behave so badly, she is striking back every chance she can. Not only at me, but towards LuAnn, Cindy, and Kelly as well. The difference between us? I do root for the underdog, and Ramona -- she likes to kick a dog when it's down. It's that simple. I used to think Ramona and I were just being brutally honest with each other but deep down, we respected each other. I never crossed the line by discussing things I knew about her and her family.