As I write this blog, I am on an Alaskan Cruise awards incentive trip, which I qualified for from my last year's insurance production. The timing couldn't be more perfect to stop and reflect on what is important in my life. I was able to bring Briana, Ryan, my grandchildren and Steve, which has made the trip very special to me. The scenery is breathtaking and it's incredible how clean the air is up here and how slow-paced life is in these little fishing towns.
It's been a tough year personally for me, and my family, which has caused me to be delayed from blogging. I am a week behind on watching the episodes the week when they air and I'll try to get current once I return back home.
My daughter's health has been an ongoing determination to find out what is going on with her and she has been my primary focus. She had complications from surgery last week and is finally doing much better.
I felt sad for Terry and Heather when Heather talked about Terry working so much and his "love" for what he does and the impact it has on the family. I know at times I have spent too much time at work when I could have been home, but in order to achieve one's personal and professional goals – family sometimes get sacrificed. They are fortunate to have the resources to hire a lot of help, but at the end of the day as Heather says you can't turn back the clock when they are older to get these memories back. Heather seems to be able to handle it all as best as she can and I'm confident they will figure it out.
Now on to the 70's party.
Watching David and Shannon in the limo heading to the party and hearing Shannon say "David is so upset with me and that he can't stand me," was ironic because actually the feeling is mutual. David getting involved in a girl conflict is a "no no" and should be lesson number one. Tamra was the one who was upset with Brooks a few years ago saying Brooks was too involved in my business and the ladies' business, so why now is it ok for David to lash out at me for something that doesn't even involve him? It's such BS and I agree with Tamra that guys should not get involved in the ladies' conflicts.
I have no idea why David is upset with me, as he was the one who was friends with Brooks also. If David has a problem with him, why hasn't he called him to get his questions answered? Shannon and David are trying to turn the focus off of them and their mess, and attempting to keep the focus on me, which I'm fine with now because I can see through it. All I continue to ask was to be able to "move on" which they can't seem to do.
Tamra posted in her blog that "I provoked David to yell at me the way he did," which is the farthest thing from the truth. She wasn't even around me as she was in the other room and only saw what you the viewers saw. When Shannon started yelling at Kelly, I went in the other room and started talking with one of David's friends. I said, "Shannon is in her glory," meaning she was trying to stir up problems with Kelly which seems like what she loves to do lately. I did not go up to David or provoke David in any way, in fact I didn't initiate a conversation with him at all because I have nothing to say to him. I was talking with his friend who was asking me how I was doing and complimenting me on my weight loss. David then yelled across the high top table, "Don't talk to her...blah blah blah," and started justifying why his friend who I had met years ago shouldn't speak with me. I turned around in shock and said, "What are you doing David?" And that is when he started to unleash his verbal abuse towards me. I was shocked to say the least and have never been yelled at by a man in my life like that. He was completely out of line and for Shannon or Tamra to justify his behavior, they obviously have lower standards than me on how a man should treat a woman.
When I got into the limo, I decided to call Brooks in hopes that he would answer the phone. HE is the only one who can stop this madness about people saying that I lied for him and I told him on his voicemail to call David to settle this once and for all. It's been over a year now since we broke up and I'm tired of talking about him. Seems to me some of these women want to keep this craziness going to put my character in question and I'm not going to let them any more. Enough is enough. Move on!! They will never know what I went through privately with him and I have no desire to discuss it anymore with any of them.
Kelly has turned out to be a real genuine friend and I care for her a lot. She has tried to reason with these ladies about moving on and not being so mean to me, however it doesn't seem to be working so well but appreciate her effort.
Some of these women are just filled with anger and hate and I feel that life doesn't have to be this way. I will never understand why they do what they do, and I've given Shannon the opportunity to move forward, and she has chosen not to. I can't help that, nor am I going to continue to enable her to be so negative and so angry. I don't know about you, but if she's so happy in her marriage and her life, then why does she seem to be so angry all the time?
I felt really bad for Meghan when she dropped Jim off at the airport. He seems so disconnected from her. Making a mockery of her when she said it was "crazy" that the next time she was going to see him was after the procedure was done was really sad. I wonder what is going on in his mind. I wonder if he really wants to have another baby (he already has four) and if it's too much for him at this time in his life. It just made me really sad for her. I hate to see anyone sad like she was. She seems so innocent and sweet and this should be the time of their lives and I think he should show more support to her.
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