Miguel was away on business in San Francisco the night of the accident and having to make that phone call and tell him that our boy had been killed was the hardest thing I've ever done. The shame and guilt I carry is immense. The first night I was just numb to everything. The second night I ate my pain by swallowing anything and everything I could. On the third night, Miguel, the best partner in the world, said to me, "Life has to go on, mi amore. Moose is gone, and while it's okay to grieve, we have to carry on." The next morning I did some serious soul searching. With my stomach in knots and feeling like the world could swallow me whole, I sat and reflected on the amazing 7 years that we had with Moose
I think you are so on it. You And Nikki should ask Bravo to give you two a spin off yall are so funny! I would def like it and watch it. Yall agree so hilarious!
First off. You are breaking my heart. It kills me to know what you are and have gone through with the loss of Moose. That dog was beautiful...in and out. You have learned a ton about yourself through this weight loss process. You're killin' it! Liked what you said about Moose not considering the jogs/hikes as exercise. He was just cherishing the time outdoors with you. Wish we could all have that viewpoint. We'd probably be as lean as him. The simplicity of a dogs life. The basics are most important...everything else finds its place. Anyhow, congrats on the weight loss. Love seeing every episode.
Bryan -- I am an attorney in NYC and have never once taken even a second to post on someone's blog. But your loss, coupled with your thoughtfulness and sensitivity, compelled me to comment. I am an animal lover and have grieved the passing of many 'family members' over the years; and I once read that the loss of a pet is equally as traumatic as the loss of a person, primarily because the love we share with a pet is love in its most pure and simple form. Human relationships are inherently complicated, whereas the love an animal offers to us is unconditional and unmarred by any past disagreements, break-ups, hurt, etc. I am so sorry for your loss and hope you will carry Moose and his love with you for the years to come.
Sweet Bryan. What a beautiful tribute to Moose. I suspect there will be old and new-found friends at the memorial. Some of them will be viewers like me who feel they know you and Miguel from watching this show. Wish I lived in CA. I would be there.
My heart goes out to you and Miguel. To most of us our pets are family and it is tragic when something happens like this. If something were to happen to one of my three pups, it would break my heart. It can happen so fast: My big dopey Boxer, just last night, jumped our 6 foot block wall to chase a cat and was in the street! ugh! I wish sometimes they did speak English so you can tell them off and they understand! But, Bryan, you're right, just as anything else that hurts us in life, no matter how hard, we can't let it consume us. Use your coping skills; friends, family, talking and working out to motivate and to help yourself to move forward.
I know your pain and sit here with tears streaming down my face. I too have lost my beloved ones, one as you have, and the pain is stunning.
I do know this. My babies don't want me to be sad. Moose doesn't want you to be sad.
Take care, sweetie.
So sorry for your incredible loss. It's amazing that one can share 2000+ days of bliss and yet one tragic day attempts to pervade all the memories. Sounds like you're on the right healing track balancing the grief with living your life. As in life, I expect that Moose would only want you and Miguel to be happy. XO
Bryan....There are many reasons why I think you are the best of the best...but your thoughts and description of the pain in losing Moose make me adore you even more. I am so sorry that you've lost your beloved friend/companion - but you've turned your loss into a magnificent, shining moment as you recognize how you must carry on and take care of yourself in the best way possible. Thank you so much, Bryan....you've given us a valuable lesson in life...and, once again, given us the opportunity to fall in love with you. XOXO
I'm so sorry for your loss, I have a dog (Bentley) that is the certain of my single, gay world and I can really empathize with your loss guys.!
Dear, sweet Moose was so lucky to live in a home so filled with laughter, unconditional love and affection. You and Miguel will never forget him or the joy he gave you. Some dogs are just special. Moose was one of those dogs. Much love to you.
Bryan I am so sorry for your lost.Moose is such a handsome Dog....I had tears in my eyes last night when read the story.I can't even imagine what I would do....Heart breaking situation.....I bet you can't stop thinking of him.And trying to be strong at the same time and focus,not easy. I watch the show last night and Congratulation your weight in -7!!!!! You Awesome!!!!! Keep up a good work.....be STRONG!!!!!! You can do it !!!! E.
I have 2 Weimaraners myself, so it is so true how full of energy, life, and love these dogs are. So sorry to hear of your loss!!
Such a beautiful boy Bryan, I'm sorry you lost him the way you did. I lost my Fred back on June 4th. Due to personal circumstances I didn't spend as much time as I should have with him the last few months of his life and didn't really get the chance to properly grieve. I feel guilty about that, but I know I shouldn't because I didn't know how things were going to play out. If I did I would have dumped the one who didn't really value me and focused my love on the golden lab who did. Fred knew I loved him and I was holding him when the vet put him down. He was such a sweet boy. Ok, now I'm crying. I've got 2 dogs and 4 cats at home and I need to have more patience with them and love them and not carry guilt or sadness about the past. Thank you for reminding me of that. Wish I could go to Moose's service. I'll be thinking of you!!
I have never Blogged before but felt inclined to tell you that I love your progress on the show. When I delved into doing so I descovered that your beloved pet was gone. I too love my dog , and feel that she is not just a pet , but a more a member of my family. In a way it seems like this is a test to see if you are really as strong as you think. Maybe in memory of your sweet angel you should prove to us all that you are not going to break under any circumstances. You go ! P.S. love , love , love the show.
Bryan, My heart breaks for you. I know all too well the devastation of losing a beloved pet. I lost my three remaining greyhounds (of five) all within the last year...and two within 6 weeks of each other. It's so hard...they steal our hearts and become our world. The grief is tough, but it does finally yield to smiles and giggles as we remember our times together. Sounds like you are already approaching that level in the process. Obviously Moose was one very lucky dog to have such loving caretakers as you and Miguel. The one thing that always gets me through those sad days is knowing that our dogs' spirits are ALWAYS with us, they do check in on us and visit us in dreams, and above all, there is the knowledge that we will all be reunited someday. Until then...Hang tough, keep the faith and keep your heart open always. With deepest sympathies, michele (a fan viewer)
Bryan: So sorry to hear of your loss of Moose. Losing a member of your family is very hard. Know that you and your beloved Moose will be together again.
Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....
I'm sending you lots of love..hugs and healing prayers..and my little Pom is sending you love and licks..and just remember that one day you and Moose will be re-united...xx
I'll bet Moose experienced more joy, love and happiness in his seven years with you than most dogs get in a lifetime.
When it hurts, take comfort in knowing you were able to love and be loved by a wonderful companion who enriched your life. He will be waiting for you on the other side of the Rainbow Bridge!
Bryan, I just found out about Moose and my heart breaks for you. I put down my 15.5 yr old a few years ago and it was the hardest but most necessary thing I had to do. Now I sit here, looking at my funny boxer and all the love and laughter she has brought me over the last 6 years and know that life does go on and you have more love to give to another when you're ready. Good luck Bryan! Can't wait to watch the finale!
I'm so sorry about Moose. Losing a pet is the hardest thing and I am crying as I'm writing this remembering the loss of my own beloved pets. Please know that there is a lot of empathy coming yours, Miguel's and Moose's way from strangers all over - if that isn't an amazing symbol of everything amazing and wonderful about our furry kids than I don't know what is. Not only did Moose touch your hearts everyday - but he is now affecting the hearts of strangers all over to unite in sharing a good cry with you. I'm sending good thoughts your way. Melody
I too am in tears at your loss. Moose was a beautiful boy. He is waiting for you at the Rainbow Bridge, where there is no sadness or pain. ( Look the poem up if you aren't familiar with it) I have a therapy dog, and Bryan with your compassion and wit and strength ~ your next dog and you should be a therapy dog team.......ahhhh the miracles that happen when an animal touches a life. God Bless to you...Julie