This week is all about weakness and to be quite honest I feel pretty weak in some areas. I'm frustrated that I haven't dropped more weight and it’s been stressing me out, which is raising my cortisol levels making it even harder to drop weight -- it's a vicious cycle! I can't seem to let stuff go. The crazy thing is that stress doesn’t help the situation at all! Think about it! Any time you ever stressed about something did you ever think, "Wow, I'm really glad I am spending this extra energy worrying about this? It's making me feel SO much better!" I need to get my stress under control or to be more specific my worrying under control. Wish me luck!
This week we got to train with professional mixed martial arts fighters. I used to kick box in high school, and it was one of my favorite workouts. When we walked in and saw Jackie boxing, I knew that this was going to be one of my favorite challenges and that it would be another chance to push myself.
Mandy was so sweet for inviting Brian, Nikki and I over for dinner. She is one of the kindest people I have ever met! I think it's adorable that she loves to entertain; who else could whip up such a healthy feast after an intense workout? I'm starting to wonder though what everyone's fascination is with my dating life. Did they not get hugged enough as children? I think it’s pretty funny because if they think I have time to date during this process they must be crazy. I am starting to get close with Mandy though. She reminds me so much of my mom, she's so kind and generous. It's really nice to have someone like her doing this program with me. Can I say how much I adore Bryan? He's becoming more of a fun big brother every day. Every time I see him, he ends up doing something that makes me laugh uncontrollably! I don't know what to think about Nikki though. She keeps saying these really negative things to me that make me think she is projecting BIG time. She seems so unstable, and very cynical. As she's telling me that I will never get a boyfriend with the body I have now (which makes me laugh because although I might be a little plumper than I would like, I am a catch. I have no problem on the dating scene). I don't know if she got some vegemite stuck up her butt or what, but she needs to calm down and stop with the negative self-loathing coaching. Give it a rest!