So I’ve been burning the candle at both ends and now it seems as if today’s demands are too much. You all know, I love what I do and work a lot -- but this particular day, I am my wit's end. Now my practice manager and nurse are making these demands on me. I have phone calls to make and personal obligations I have to meet. Now these ladies are giving me my schedule and wanting checks signed NOW! When it feels like the walls are closing in, I try to get myself out and take a breather. Maybe Simone and Curtis can see some things that I haven’t stopped to notice.
Now normally I can take it, but, at the end of my morning, it’s just a bit too much. I am going to have an extended lunch break today. I am leaving unannounced because if I say I’m leaving there may be more to do. No, I don’t have any more patients for the day because I have cleared my own schedule. Today, I am leaving and go to my house and just take a breath.
Seeing the inside of my house before dark has brought some attention to things. I noticed "oh my, my pillows are orange and not red." I see very clearly that parenting maybe a big undertaking and I actually need to think it through. Every fiber in my body still wants to answer the call to motherhood, but I guess my life as a doctor is somewhat like motherhood because I so enjoy it. I also realize that I am human and even doctors sometimes have off days. I truly honor and respect my staff, and, yes, they are doing what they were paid to do -- to take care of the patients and the practice.
I love my husband and he loves and protects me even from myself, but maybe today I can see what I haven’t been able to see in the past. Motherhood may be a lot because I love what I do and could not and would not want to neglect either of my responsibilities.
Now I didn't go to the Lisa Nicole Princess Party because it seemed like it was a mother/daughter outing. It looks like she didn't spare any expense to make sure her lil' princess had a great party. Now it was unfortunate that the ladies had to have these discussions in front of the lil princesses. Maybe Ms. Manners can have a class with the grown ups as well.