Porsha Williams' Sister Lauren Opens Up about Grieving Late Dad on 22nd Anniversary of His Death

Porsha Williams' Sister Lauren Opens Up about Grieving Late Dad on 22nd Anniversary of His Death

The RHOA sibling went into detail about still being emotional about his passing two decades later. 

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Porsha Williamslittle sister Lauren Williams took to Instagram to share a heartfelt and emotional tribute to their dad, Hosea Williams II, who passed away 22 years ago. Lauren was only a little kid when their dad passed, but noted how his passing still affects her and her choices to this day.

"Wish you were here to meet me! To see who I became... I think you would be proud. I talk to [yo]u at night sometimes when I’m confused or sad. I’m pretty sure you answer me. I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t have daddy issues if I talked to you more. I can feel you," she wrote, along with a childhood photo of herself with her dad, the son of Civil Rights pioneer Rev. Hosea Williams. "I’m learning to be quiet more so I can hear you too. I have lots of good friends that look out for me and tell me when I’m wrong. I’m really really close to Porsha and Londy! I know that would make you happy. I know I made mistakes [because] you weren’t here to remind me not to. I know I looked for love in all the wrong places [because] I was trying to fill that void. I’ve always felt like a piece of me was missing and I’ve tried to fill it with everything: alcohol, tv, bfs, social media, fake friends etc. But I’m ending that cycle."

Lauren then opened up about her life now, including being a mom to her daughter Baliegh and how she hopes to carry on his legacy.

"I choose to fill it with reopening your business, opening my own, being a good mom to Baleigh, taking care of mommy because she’s amazing, prayer, and more. It still baffles me that the death of someone I only knew for 10 years makes me cry at the drop of a dime today and any day but it does," she said. [Because] we were soulmates of a certain kind. I think all parents and kids are. Baleigh is definitely mine. Grief is soooo weird. It never ends or really even gets better until you lean into it. Until you start to let yourself remember, let yourself imagine what if, let yourself wonder what happens after.... until you really accept it. I’ve finally after 22 years accepted it and with that I’ve become closer to you in my head and in my heart. I know I always have you with me and until we meet again, I’m grateful for my tribe."

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Wish you were here to meet me! To see who i became... i think you would be proud. I talk to u at night sometimes when I’m confused or sad. I’m pretty sure you answer me. I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t have daddy issues if I talked to you more. I can feel you... I’m learning to be quiet more so I can hear you too. I have lots of good friends that look out for me and tell me when I’m wrong. I’m really really close to Porsha and Londy! I know that would make you happy. I know I made mistakes bc you weren’t here to remind me not to. I know I looked for love in all the wrong places bc I was trying to fill that void. I’ve always felt like a piece of me was missing and I’ve tried to fill it with everything: alcohol, tv, bfs, social media, fake friends etc. But I’m ending that cycle. I choose to fill it with reopening your business, opening my own, being a good mom to baleigh, taking care of mommy because she’s amazing, prayer, and more. It still baffles me that the death of someone I only knew for 10 years makes me cry at the drop of a dime today and any day but it does. Bc we were soulmates of a certain kind. I think all parents and kids are. Baleigh is definitely mine. Grief is soooo weird. It never ends or really even gets better until you lean into it. Until you start to let yourself remember, let yourself imagine what if, let yourself wonder what happens after.... until you really accept it. I’ve finally after 22 years accepted it and with that I’ve become closer to you in my head and in my heart. I know I always have you with me and until we meet again, I’m grateful for my tribe.

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Porsha has also previously posted tributes and throwback photos of her dad. The Real Housewives of Atlanta cast member has even noted her strong resemblance to her late dad. "Miss you and love you so much! Please visit me in my dreams like you used do!" she wrote, adding, "My Twin."

She also talked about keeping his memory alive for her daughter, Pilar Jhena: "I lost my father years ago — he was a really special man. It’s hard at times, but keeping his memory alive is important to me. Although Baby PJ won’t get the chance to meet him, I know he is here in spirit and guiding me. I can feel his presence."

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