A Ball of Nerves

Wow. What a season! First of all, thank all of you for going on this crazy ride with me. It’s been an honor to receive this outpouring of love and support. Kisses to you all!

To say it has been a rollercoaster would be the biggest understatement in Housewives history! As always, I send my thoughts and prayers to the family and friends of Russell Armstrong. I'm sure this couldn't have been an easy thing to have as a reminder as they still grieve.

That being said, this season has had just as many laughs as tears. And as the saying goes, laughter is the best medicine.

So: The Reunion.

Since that episode was filmed more recently than the show, my feelings are still very raw. I was a ball of nerves walking onto that stage. Let me be clear, there are no video monitors or speakers backstage. I waited for six hours and had zero idea of what I was walking into when I finally entered. To be clear, here is where my relationships stand:

• Kim: Kim and I haven't seen each other or spoken since the show wrapped. I wish her the best of luck in her recovery.

   

• Camille: I've had a lot of fun getting to know her. She's sweet and kind, and I’m very grateful to have made such a lovely new friend.

   

• Kyle and I have spoken only briefly since wrapping; she was kind enough to invite me to a recent holiday party but I was unable to attend.

   

• Lisa and I have grown quite close. She's an amazing friend and mom. She's got an amazing sense of humor, and she's honest, one of the qualities that means the most to me.

   

• Adrienne and I exchanged a few texts messages but I hadn't seen her since wrapping when we taped the reunion.

   

Heading into the reunion, I had an idea that the women might go for Lisa and as soon as I get on stage, Lisa is teary eyed and seemingly broken. She's my friend. I know exactly what it feels like to be in a room with these ladies and be the target with no one sticking up for you. I'm extremely loyal, I have a temper, and I will stand up for my friends. To make one thing very clear, Lisa has never said a bad thing about any of these women to me; that is one of the things I respect most about her.

Seeing Kyle liken her friendship with Lisa to playing a game of chess with Bobby Fisher (I'm not going to lie I had to Google him) was mean spirited and simply over-dramatic. There comes a point where you have to look in the mirror and ask yourself: "Why am I always in the middle of these fights?" Just a suggestion.

Lisa is a smart, strategic, and successful businesswoman. She is neither calculating nor manipulative.

Taylor seems like a smart girl. Did she really think I was going to kill anyone at game night? Like, for instance, did she really mean in Season 1 that she was going to take Kim outside and beat her up? Taylor understands what a figure of speech is. That was a pathetic attempt to vilify me. Come on Taylor. You can do better than that. I'm not perfect by any means. There are many things she could have said that actually hold more weight. Did I slash my husband's tires? Hell yes I did. He was on the cover of every magazine from here to Timbuktu with stories of his infidelities during our marriage.

So I repeat, did I slit his tires? Hell yes. But I owned them too and I told him I did it so he wouldn't drive them. I was trying to piss him off, not hurt him.

I was never was going to kill anyone at game night and someone thinking that I was because I was defending myself from a pack of wild, hair flinging, finger-pointing hyenas is just stupid.

To be honest, I really hadn't planned on engaging Taylor at all. She's been through a lot.

Some of the things I did and said I regret and wish I could take back. All I can do is try to be true to myself. If you've learned anything about me, I say what I mean and I mean what I say. I love you all for your support. Until next time.

Xx
B

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