After my trip back from LA, I thought a lot about what my mom said and also about the fact that Romain made amends with Frederic. That got me thinking and that is why I deiced to have a sit down lunch meeting with Adriana and try to work out our issues and past harassments. I hate having the horrible knot in my stomach every time I know I am going to see her. I wanted once and for all to sit down and move forward from this, since I am focused on my career and wedding and don't have the time nor the energy to keep going back in circles over the same thing over and over again.
I won’t lie, I was super nervous how the lunch would turn out and if she would understand why I feel the way I do and if she would sincerely apologize to me. I was on the fence, since I thought her apology in Bimini was sincere and turned out not to be. I don't have time in my life for hate and bad energy, and I only try to surround myself with good people, but I do believe in second chances and that is why I want to give that opportunity to her. I am not planning on being her best friend, but I want to move forward from this and focus on the important things in my life.
Finally Romain made it to the sex therapy session, and I though it went quite well. I loved the idea of role playing to spice up our love life a bit, but I was also worried how I was going to pull this off, so I decided to totally revamp and change my look and take this acting assignment quite seriously.
The night of the role playing I had major anxiety and was having second thoughts about this role playing assignment. But I am the type of person that sticks to a commitment and doesn't give up easily, so I knew I had to get myself together to make this work. And also have fun with it, because it was my Romain after all… I wanted to look the opposite of how I normally look, so I got a short dark wig and did my makeup super dark, which is the opposite of what I normally do. I really wanted to get into the whole character I was going to play -- Natalia the Russian ballerina. I came up with Natalia, because I felt it seemed exotic, plus Russian girls are super hot and maybe that would get Romain excited LOL![video_clip_url:http://player.theplatform.com/p/PHSl-B/yT7k3t_YLXoZ/embed/select/owS_zjybjBVN]
On my way to the Four Seasons bar I already had a few shots of vodka at home, since I was super nervous and felt uncomfortable because it wasn't Halloween and I felt out of my comfort zone. But I had to go on with it as I went this far to get ready and change my look, but didn't want to give up now. When I sat down at the bar and saw Romain, it was hard for me to keep a straight face without blowing up in laughter, because this was so different from how we are, but at that point I was feeling good since the alcohol had kicked, and I started feeling much more confident in my character. As the conversation went on, I couldn't believe the things Romain was saying, so I was playing along and decided that Natalia wasn't going to be a sweet little girl like the sex therapist would like her to be and I made her a tough chick – an exaggerated version of myself LOL! As we went up to the room things just went downhill from there, and I ended up taking off my wig and giving up on the whole role playing thing, but I will say I had so much fun playing someone else for a few hours, and that is what I love about Romain. We are so goofy together! He is not an uptight guy and he’s open to doing whatever he needs to make our relationship strong. We are a dream team, even though we are crazy, but one thing no one can deny is that we are REAL!
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