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Shannon Beador: I Can't Fix What I Don't Know

"It’s heartbreaking for me to hear that Tamra feels I don’t trust her when it comes to my weight and working out."

By Shannon Storms Beador
Don't Even F---ing Blame It On Me, Shannon Beador

In this episode you see that I have started to work out with a trainer. Steven works less than 10 minutes from my house and despite my hectic schedule, we do our best to meet up every day, even if it’s only for 20 minutes. Steven has a degree in Kineisology, which is helping to ensure that this old lady doesn’t get hurt. I’m not enjoying exercising, but I know I have to make it part of my daily life. 

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I’m not really sure why Gina seems to be putting words into my mouth when telling Emily about our dinner with the group. All I said is that their situation reminded me of something that might have happened in my marriage. I never ever said I was concerned for Emily. In fact, I said that I didn’t want to project my marriage onto her’s. Also, when asked if I thought she was in a bad marriage, my answer was an unequivocal no. I think that Gina should have focused on her issue with Emily and stopped trying to deflect attention onto one simple, harmless statement that I made. I never gave an opinion about Emily’s marriage. 

It’s heartbreaking for me to hear that Tamra feels I don’t trust her when it comes to my weight and working out. I absolutely do respect and trust her and just wish that her gym was closer to my home. It’s more upsetting to hear that she feels I don’t ever ask about Eddie. This confuses me because I do. I wish she would have communicated her feelings to me, because that’s part of a healthy friendship. I can’t fix what I don’t know. 

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Golfing was fun. Kelly, Emily, and I had a lot of laughs. And then at the end of playing, I was a little shocked when Emily told me I needed boundaries when it came to her marriage. I never said I was concerned for Emily. What kind of telephone game is being played? And now to incorporate the word “abuse”??? I apologized to Emily for something I never even said. I never talked about Emily’s husband. Enough. 

I’m not quite sure why Tamra is so angry. I didn't make a comment about Emily’s husband or go after him, which is what was continually alleged. I said that something reminded me of my marriage. Tamra wouldn't let it go, and I felt the need to walk away because it wasn’t stopping. 

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