Shannon tends to close people out when she is upset. That is why it’s difficult for me to always let her know how I feel, because I always have that fear of her icing me out. It was difficult to have Shannon shut us out. We were coming from a place of concern (not gossip), AND nobody wants their friend to be alone in a foreign country. But that concern became frustration and anger when she wouldn’t respond to any of us.
Trust me I know exactly what it’s like, does Bali ring a bell?
Not only was I alone after that dinner in Bali, but I also flew home by myself, and NO ONE CARED! I was going through the hardest time of my life. My ex-husband was trying to take away my kids, and I was devastated and scared. I wish I had a friend like ME to chase after me and make sure I was OK and let me know what I was doing to cause them concern.
When Shannon and I sat down in my villa to talk, I felt like I was being extremely honest. I love Shannon like a sister. The points that I wanted to get across to her were I love her very much, and I wanted her to start trying to be more positive instead of focusing on the negative things going on in her life. That her friends were getting tired of hearing it. That everyone is busy and that I, too, was going through a very emotional time even though I didn’t show it. I was upset that she treated me like that, just because I didn’t respond to Gina’s stupid untrue statement.
To be honest, I was kind of in shock that Gina even went there! It was extremely mean of Gina to say Shannon was not a good friend to me. I wish I would have spoken up sooner!
My hesitation had nothing to do with what kind of friend Shannon is to me. Just pure shock of being put on the spot and that Gina would say something like that after I’ve been trying to help her become better friends with Shannon. The whole fight never had to happen. The discussion was supposed to be about Shannon not warming up to the new girls. Shannon apologized to both of them at that dinner for not having the time to get to know them, which should’ve been the end of it.
Shannon and I have such a close bond. Every time we go through something, it just brings us closer together. Let me tell you something about my friend Shannon: She does have the biggest heart in the world, and I’m very lucky to have her as a friend.
I have learned a big lesson from all of this. I will NEVER vent to another friend just because I have a hard time communicating with another. You never know when it will be thrown in your face or used against you. The best part of this show is watching yourself from the outside and fixing the things you don’t like about yourself.
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