Cast Blog: #MDLMIA

Sam: I Think About Chloe Daily

Chad: "I am Such a Lucky Guy"

Chris is Relationship Ready

Why Sam Didn't Move to Sotheby's

The Most Stressful Thing Chad's Ever Done

Chris Always Sees a Listing Through

Is Samantha Ready to Move?

Chad Thinks Chris Has a Crush on Him

Chris: Chad's a Great Sport

Sam Gets Sh-- Done

Chris Worked His Ass Off for Orsi

Chad: Sam Needs More Than a Fish Suit

Sam's "Sailfish" Dilemma

Chris: Sam's a Fighter

Chad Just Keeps Swimming

Chris: Sam Is Plain Rude

Sam: Chris Can Dish It But Can't Take It

Take Chad's Advice

I'd Rather Have Half of Something Fabulous

Not on Chad's Watch

Sam: There Was Nothing Left for Me to Do

Chris Senses Sexual Tension Between Chad and Sam

Samantha on Proving Herself and Google Alerts

Chad's No Part Time Agent

Sam: I Think About Chloe Daily

Samantha explains how hard it was losing her best friend and why she wasn't ready to leave the house for Chad's event.

Watching today's episode was extremely difficult. Just when I thought everything was moving in a great direction, a bomb hit me out of no where. Words cannot describe the excruciating mental pain I went through after losing Chloe. Chloe was my little girl and best friend for over eight-and-a-half years and her death was unexpected and unwarranted. There truly is no love that compares to the love of an animal. I still think about her daily.

The period of time from the death of Chloe and the months following were extremely difficult for me. I had never experienced loss and suffering of a loved on. A week after her death, I attended Chad's Palm Beach open house, one which ended in me crying. Was I mentally ready to get out of my house? No. But as a friend of Chads, I wanted to support him.

I think this episode truly shows my human side. I'm not perfect by any means, but I constantly strive to be. And even when you prepare for life, you can never be prepared enough.

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