Cast Blog: #RHOBH

I'm Not Cruella de Vil

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Brandi: Kyle Wants to Help When There's an Audience

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Brandi: I Won't Make Excuses

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Eileen: Being a Stepmom Is Challenging

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Kyle: Brandi Was Rude and Offensive

Eileen: It Felt Like an Attack

Lisa R.: It Was Shocking and Unprovoked

Kim: Brandi Is Brandi

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Brandi: Lisa V. Was Making Me Uncomfortable

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Eileen: Brandi Showed Us How Not to Make Amends

Yolanda: I Took One for the Team

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Kyle: Moments Like These Are Frustrating

Lisa V.: I Won't Erase the Past

Brandi: I Don't Enjoy Anger or Grudges

Eileen: I Could Feel the Tension at Kyle's

Lisa R Reflects on That Bittersweet Episode

I'm Not Cruella de Vil

Marisa blames Yolanda for igniting the drama with Brandi.

Hi everyone, I hope you are having a great week! I'm so sorry my blog is late! I have been overwhelmed with work and the kids, as I am sure you can all relate. Before I get into this blog entry I want to thank you all again for your advice and kind words, I greatly appreciate the support.

As you all know, I am the first to admit when I am wrong. I am not perfect and when I make mistakes I own them. I definitely made a mistake when I read Brandi's text message in front of some of the girls, and I regret that. I spoke with Brandi before she came to the party and admitted what I did and apologized to her. In the end, we laughed about it, she forgave me and we moved on.

Yolanda didn't know that I had spoken with Brandi, but at the same time I didn’t know that Yolanda called Brandi to talk about me. Yolanda continued to discuss my mistake with Brandi on the way to the party and re-ignited the issue. I must admit, I laughed at Yolanda's rendition of how it all went down. It was hilarious because Yolanda had all of these distorted facial expressions when mimicking me and spoke with a very exaggerated intonation that reminded me of Cruella de Vil, not me at all. Yolanda was trying to be a good friend to Brandi, even if it meant throwing me under the bus for a mistake that I made. Lesson learned, it won’t happen again and I am truly and deeply sorry.

It is a bit upsetting because when I watched the episode I noticed that Yolanda is the one that said Brandi flirts with all the guys. Rewind your DVRs or watch the clip online. I am not the kind of person that would call Brandi and start shit between her and the other women. Did I call Brandi to apologize for what I did wrong? Yes. Did I call Brandi and tell her that Yolanda said she flirts with all the guys? No. Did Yolanda start off the season by telling everyone that Brandi has slept with all of the men in Beverly Hills? Yes.

Despite my mistake, I thought Yolanda and I were on the same page. When she said Brandi is not the type of girl who sleeps with married men, I agreed with her 100 percent and that is on camera. You will notice that Yolanda is doing most of the talking during the confrontation and half the things she said simply were not true. Brandi and I were just about to hug and make up and then Yolanda piped in to stop it.

According to Yolanda, I held up the text and screamed, "Look at the text Brandi sent! How dare she?" LOL! I am glad this is on film because I was smiling when I was reading the text, though I give Yolanda an A for effort in her attempt to frame me as a nasty bitch.

I love Brandi and we got past this a long time ago. In fact, we just hung out a few weeks ago and have built a really good friendship since shooting. I have learned a lot from my mistakes and I have learned a lot about all of the Housewives. I am sure I will make other mistakes in my life; I am only human and a Housewife. Just because I am on TV doesn't mean I am perfect, it means that I have thousands of people reminding me when I am not.

I learn and grow everyday and when I am wrong I own it and apologize and move on. Life is too short to worry about the past or to stress out about the future. After I have made amends I prefer to live in the moment. . .unless I have to write a blog, of course!

I hope you all have a great weekend!

Love always,

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