After going through the struggles to become sober, I realized that there’s no time in life to waste. If there’s a problem, why are we not talking about it and getting it resolved? That’s just how I am in my professional life, my dating life, my family life, and with my friendships. #ToThePoint
Here we are again, Lisa Rinna and I getting deep, fast. This year is all about the #LightningBolt. It’s a symbol that shocks, brings light, and creates energy to whatever it hits. By now you know I’m big on #Energy. And #DUH, I bought those pants #RetailTherapy. Rinna was bringing her own lightning bolt to the conversation. You can even see it on my face during our talk that I was slightly shocked. Saying that Kim was close to death? How can you not be shocked? I don’t think that Kim is close to death. I think she just needs to tap into her higher power to find her truth. However, as addicts, we are close to death at any point. You never know what could happen, so I didn’t look at Rinna’s comment as being malicious. I just understood what she meant.
I asked Kyle a lot of questions at lunch. Questions she didn’t want to hear or think about. But after Rinna told me that Kyle was her enabler, I felt like I had to get to know Kyle and understand where she was coming from to help Kim. Because I didn’t feel a very welcoming energy at #GameNight, I wanted to make it my mission to get to know Kyle, and for Kyle to get to know me. I think she will find out soon enough that I have a #HUGE heart. And as someone who knows the pain of being an addict, I don’t care who it is, or if I am close to them or not, I want to help! There is such an amazing life that comes from being sober and living your #Truth. I want that for anyone struggling. And if Kyle chooses not to talk about it with me, or her sister, I just hope Kim knows that I’m always here.
Kyle thought I was being invasive, asking questions about her mom. I didn’t mean to make her feel like that, but as the daughter of a recovering alcoholic (my mother), I know that it comes from somewhere. The more you know about how it started or who it may have been passed from, the more you can learn about yourself. It helps the whole sobriety process. One day I hope Kyle recognizes where I am coming from.
Note to Self: You can’t take it personally when others aren’t ready to look at the deeper meaning of things. #TheseThingsTakeTime