Cast Blog: #RHONJ

What Happens in Punta Cana

Amber Calls Out Andy Cohen

Dina: What am I Doing Here?

Amber: Is Dina Coldhearted?

Dina: "The Reunion was Very Hard to Watch"

Teresa: We Love Hard, We Fight Hard

Dina: The Ladybug Event was Perfection

Amber: I Felt I Like I Was Being Hazed

Melissa: Continue to Pray for Teresa's Family

Why Amber Shares Her Cancer Story

Dina: I Was Team Santa

Teresa: I Don't Blame Jim

Bobby's Unacceptable Behavior

Amber: Dina is Jealous

Melissa: "We are Heartbroken"

Dina Reacts to the Sentencing

Kathy Talks Kevin Jonas

Amber: Dina Was Planning a Blood Bath

Jim and Amber Were on Different Pages

Dina on Bobby's "Bizarre" Behavior

Amber Calls BS on Dina

Nicole: Words are So Powerful

Teresa: "Kudos to Dina!"

Teresa: I Love the Show, I Love My Fans

Praying for a Positive Outcome for Teresa

"Tipsy Melissa is My Spirit Animal"

Dina's Lose-Lose Situation

Jacqueline on Her Status with Teresa

Why Teresa Told Dina the Rumor

Amber on Her Cancer Scare

Teresa: There was an Agenda to Hurt My Family

Melissa: I Do Feel for Amber

Dina: Gia's Beautiful Inside and Out

Nicole: This is Not 'Jerry Springer'

Amber on Her Meltdown with Teresa

Amber's Emotional Call to Teresa

Teresa Thanks the Fans

Dina: Florida Will Be the New Scary Island

Teresa: I Wish I Never Heard the Rumor

Amber on the Shocking Rino Rumor

Victoria Gotti's Big No No

What Happens in Punta Cana

Jacqueline looks back at the entire Punta Cana adventure.

PUNTA CANA BABY! Like Melissa said, "Jersey has arrived!"

Let me first start out by saying whoever it was that shot that angle of me packing, I'd appreciate it if you could possibly find a new angle to shoot me from next time. Use half of a lens if you have to. Thanks.

Just so you know, I actually packed two bathing suits with absolutely no intention of wearing either one of them. I just wanted to show the girls how cute they were. Girls appreciate sharing that kind of thing with each other. It gives us a brief little moment of joy.

I have serious body image issues. I seriously don't like anyone, including myself, looking at my body. LOL! (Except for my husband, but I trick him with the lighting.) I did appreciate the fabulosity of Teresa and Melissa's bathing suits and admire their self confidence in modeling them. I know Teresa worked out hardcore before that trip with a mutual trainer of ours, www.JoleneMatthews.com, and it showed. Both Teresa and Melissa have amazing "after multiple pregnancy" bodies. Most people don't even look that good BEFORE their pregnancies. God blessed them! I didn't want to sit by EITHER of those girls in a bathing suit, and I was praying that they wouldn't ask me to. Of course my worst fear happened, and I was actually "sangwiched" in-between the both of them. Talk about feeling like the double stuffed cream in the middle of an Oreo. I know, I know...everybody loves the creamy middle. Whatever. I had no tan and I felt like a mush. Every year I tell myself that the following year will be different, because I will be so tone and fit by then. This time I mean it! I know I was lucky not to get stretch marks, but everything needs to get toned up. I think I also may have more skin than I need to have, so I'd eventually like to cut some of it off. Can't I donate it or something?

Enough with my insecurities. It's amazing to me that I could care less about judging or noticing or caring about other people's body flaws, but when it comes to my own...I analyze every inch of my whole body from my head to my toes. Hey, at least I have a good sense of humor about it all. I know how to laugh at myself.

When we arrived in Punta Cana, the warm weather felt so good. We left the cold, icy snow of New Jersey behind us. Nice sunny weather gives me so much positive energy.
When I heard that someone was missing a bag, I got freaked and made a beeline for mine and ran over the baggage belt carrier to get it. (So we may have had a few cocktails on the plane…) Teresa's accessory bag went missing for Godsake! That was horrifying! Luckily for her, it finally showed up, but unfortunately not until our last day there. Woman's nightmare!

Not going to lie, as badass as it looked coming around the bend in our Escalades, I kind of felt like a jerk driving through where we had to go in them in order to get to our hotel. It just didn't feel right. Neither did stopping along the highway so all of our men could get out to pee in the tall grass. "You're from Jersey and you can tell! Way to keep it classy, Jersey!" Thanks, Melissa! Sometimes I wish I had a penis, so I could just whip it out and whiz whenever and wherever I wanted, then just shake it off, stick it back in my pants, and walk away. It's much more complicated and less convenient for women. Not fair! I had to hold it in until I got to a little girls room. The little place we stopped to use the rest room was like using an outhouse. There was no toilet paper, no way to flush, and no water to wash your hands. I could have gone in the tall grass on the side of the road after all and used a leaf or dripped dry in the wind. I always carry feminine wipes with me. You just never know when they will come in handy. Sorry for the over share.

The Hard Rock Hotel & Casino was amazing and our rooms were incredible with such beautiful views. It was impressive. The people at the hotel were so welcoming and accommodating. We can't thank them enough.

I felt so horrible for Caroline when she got that migraine. She gets them a lot. What is the cause of this? Anyone know? What is the best way to prevent or cure one? I guess all the screeching and yelling and slamming doors didn't help much, huh? Sorry about that, Caroline. I felt bad that she was on vacation and had to deal with that. Do you think that maybe she faked it to have some rest and relaxation away from our crazy crew? Nah! Albert would have stayed behind with her. I think it was real. Poor thing.

Teresa modeling her swimsuits for us was...well...very Teresa-like. We are used to it. At one point she was crawling all over the table in front of everyone while I took sexy pictures of her. That was hot! Most people may take offense to their friends doing that in front of your husbands, but for some reason with her it never bothered me. She cracks me up. I have noticed this season that Teresa's outfits are getting brighter and shinier. I think she may be trying very hard to stand out, as if she doesn't already! I guess maybe she feels the competition is getting stronger. Who knows? Teresa always strives to be the shiniest star. I thought it was funny when Greg said Teresa looked like an Oscar in her gold bathing suit. She did, a fabulous one. I enjoyed the fashion show with all of her beautiful swimsuits. She brought a suitcase full. She would change them midday so we all could see the variety of her different looks. You've got to love it.

The boat ride was so beautiful. We had a lot of fun on there with the lions and tigers and bears, oh my! We used to play "cucaracha" a lot at my house, but on a much smaller scale. We used plastic cups and cut out passages for them to be able to enter and leave the cups freely. Whoever's cup the roach goes into has to drink. If it goes in the middle cup, everyone drinks. You can find the bionic roaches at most toy stores. They are sold as the "HEXBUG Nano." They come in a variety of colors. If you want, you can assign each person a color and play that way too. It's a good time. Young kids love them for other reasons. I loved how Richie threw his shot over his shoulder and off of the boat. That made me laugh out loud. You've got to hand it to the man, he knows when enough is enough, but he still knows how to stay in the game.

Albie, Christopher, Lauren, and Greg always make me laugh when I'm around them. They are always teasing each other, saying funny one-liners, and having a good time. They can light up a room.

Speaking of lighting up a room, Kathy and Teresa can do that too. Ugh! I felt so bad that argument had to happen. I think what happens is that when you are harboring ill feelings toward someone, you are more likely to analyze everything they say while on guard for anything that remotely sounds like it could be an insult and then use it against them. I understand how Teresa was feeling, because she never got over Kathy's "unattended" comment. I heard about it all season. I don't think she will ever fully get over that one, but we'll see. I honestly don't think that Kathy meant any harm in what she said. I don't feel it was an attack on Teresa's parenting in either situation. I think that Teresa may possibly be feeling some guilt from being out working so much. It's common for working moms to feel like that. I've been there. Regardless, this fight was over something silly, and I'd like to think they will work this one out. It could have been such a peaceful day. Oh well, at least you all were entertained.

I can't ever erase my memory of the marketplace. That scarred me pretty good. I became a vegetarian after that (for about a week or two). How was that place healthy? How aren't those locals sick and throwing up all over the place? I don't get it. I must continue to say a prayer for them. Once again I felt like a big jerk showing up in an escalade dressed like we're coming from the 'Sex in the City' set and running up and down the rows screaming and crying. We didn't exactly blend. Locals were stopped all around looking at us as if we were.... well... Jersey folk. LOL! The smell was so bad there that Caroline and I were fighting over a bag of cinnamon that we kept shoving our face so we could inhale the fumes. That place was just gross. There were dogs eating the brains out of those cow heads that were lying on the ground.

There was a moment when Melissa said, "Look how cute that chicken is!" and Kathy said, "Don't try to name it or get too attached to it honey." Teresa was twirling around in her beautiful Marc Bouwer dress holding bloody animal body parts, as we were running from her in pools of blood in our platform heels. It was just insane. I actually got back into the car and slammed the door in Teresa's face before she could get in there, because I had decided to blame her for bringing us there. I was comatose for the rest of the day. Teresa could have just as easily researched her spices and "ingrediences" online. Next time. It was quite the experience.

It was nice to see the guys playing golf, having a good time, and getting along with each other. They were entertaining. Hey Albie and Christopher, nice hearing you laugh. (I love your sense of humor.) Hey Chris, nice dimples! (I love seeing him laugh.) Hey Giudice, nice swing!(Stick to martial arts.) Hey Gorga, nice ass! (We've seen a lot of it lately, but clearly not more than Melissa has.) Hey Richie, nice rolling hubcap! (You were out of control!) Hey Albert, nice being the only one having respect for the game. (The Hardrock thanks you.) Well... Boys will be boys.

I loved the Latin game show themed music during the Punta Princess contest. That was very clever. More clever than some of our contestants. LOL! Did I hear Teresa say that our vice president was Clinton or his wife? Oh dear Lordy. I think that maybe it had just been a looong day. (I knew that game was a bad idea.) The Hard Rock certainly was a beautiful resort. Overall, the trip was fun and definitely a learning experience.

I will just end this trip with this... What happened in Punta Cana, stays in Punta Cana.
I'm very proud of Albie and Christopher for doing such a fabulous job with the BLK. Launch! You all know from my last blog how I feel about BLK. and the fulvic acid it contains. Love the health benefits and everybody should be informed!

Melissa, once again, outstanding job on your performance. Your daddy is definitely proud watching you from above. I loved Joe Giudice's speech. I really believe he actually meant that one. I know him. I could tell. That was cute. Best wishes for a very successful future.

Kathy's sister Rosie, as sweet as she really is, looked bad-ass this episode. I wouldn't want to mess with her. She knew what was up. I just love Rosie! XOXO!

My season finale blog will be up soon.

I hope all is well with all of you. Take care. XOXO!

PS: Did you see me piggyback Chris across the sand? I know! I'm strong, right?

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Amber: I Felt I Like I Was Being Hazed

Amber Marchese dishes on her experience this season on #RHONJ.

We made it Housewife friends! As it was my rookie season, I felt like I was being hazed in a sorority, but as hard as it was, I made it! I learned so much about how strong I am as a person and some areas that I can work on. I learned that I really do have a “no surrender, never retreat” mentality. I will go to bat with anyone, at any time, and will defend myself and my family at all cost. I also witnessed the undying love that my husband has for me and his family. He was not going to let anyone hurt me and will unleash hell if someone tries. He is truly my modern day Spartan warrior. 

I am so blessed to have shared my experience and struggles with breast cancer -- the timing of my five year mark, the photo shoot, and growing my hair for five years then cutting it for charity -- it was nothing short of a miracle that the Bravo was able to catch that all. It was just meant to be and God was truly working his wonders. Cutting my hair was completely symbolic for me, since cancer no longer defines me. I will never forget, however the pain, fear, and anxiety is in my rear view mirror now. I can sometimes look back to remind myself where I came from, but it in no way defines my future. It is my promise to all of you, I will never take that for granted, especially knowing that there are thousands struggling with cancer every day. 

On to my perspective on the season finale! I am not quite sure why the twins make it a point to confront others in front of large crowds. As Teresa said, they had two weeks to call her and speak to her about what Victoria Gotti had said to us. If they had an issue or wanted an apology, so be it, but what ever happened to being a civilized human being and picking up the phone to call? They did the same thing to me. Two weeks went by without any phone call from them. In fact, they never returned any of my phone calls or texts! They decided to make a scene in front of an entire party. Difference is, this was at a charity event with children in ear shot. Can you blame me for not wanting to bring my babies to this event? I would have absolutely loved my children sashaying down the runway, but there is absolutely no way I would EVER allow my babies to hear what went on. I spoke with Teresa and I knew the twins never called her. So I knew exactly what was brewing, so did Dina. My children come first and mama was protecting her children. Dina was brazen enough to kick Jim and me out of the Florida home for less of an offense, why wasn’t Dina kicking the twins out because they were making a scene at her own charity function for children?! Can we say double standard? Where were her “heads rolling” that she claimed would happen if someone started anything at a Ladybug event? 

I will add that I completely understand how hurt the twins are. I can understand their anger. However, I cannot understand their way of handling conflict. That level of “hot headedness,” I would think, cools down at a certain age as we tend to calm ourselves, think clearly, and with wisdom. It is a level of discernment that should happen after a certain age or experience in life. 

Dina claims to be Teresa’s friend of 25 years, but does not back up her friend at all. If that was my friend, like Christine or Angelia, whom I have been friends for just as long, the twins would not have gotten to the letter T in stupid before I would be dragging them out of the event by their ears. Dina doesn’t have to agree with her best friend, but she should also never allow someone to call her friend of 25 years stupid, at her own charity function no less. Especially knowing what her friend is going through, which pales in comparison to some stupid rumor.

Since Dina has unwarranted venom towards my husband and has completely snubbed him for his previous contributions to The Ladybug Project, I am going to thank him on their behalf for coming up with the idea of the children's fashion show, as well as the connection to East Coast Stars. Since Jim did not attend, he also made a sizable cash donation on behalf of our family. Jim had also worked hard before all the drama to make sure Ladybug even had a venue with all costs covered, including food and beverage. The venue was ultimately not chosen, but Jim had still worked hard to give Dina an option for the event. Instead she chooses to focus on Jim’s comment about her IQ after she interrogated him at an extremely inappropriate, charged moment right after his wife was attacked. Despite her inappropriateness, Jim still ended up apologizing to her. However in my opinion she should have apologized to him for being so glaringly insensitive. 

It may seem as if my perspective is harsh for an end of season blog, LOL! But it is what I was feeling at the time. I owe it to you all to give you my honest interpretation of it. However, at the end of the season, I came out having a certain amount of respect for all of these ladies. Being on a reality show is hard; it pushes us to our limits and it is nothing short of psychological warfare. I truly hope you will support all of us, equally. Teams are good, and appreciated; however, keep the hate towards other Housewives out of it. Perspective are OK, different points of view are what make the world go round, however, when your perspective rises to a level of cruelty, it takes the fun out of our jobs. Allow us to be ourselves, with the good moments and even the moments when we could have handled ourselves a little better. At the end of the day, the Housewives are girlfriends that have strong personalitiesand disagreements -- we love, we hate, and we make up. That’s life. 

I have would like to thank: Denee Lockhart, Amy Malkoff, J. Vincent Jewelers, Cate Scaglione Photography, Castle Couture, Action Media Productions, Elinet Cakes, Christine’s Restaurant, Historical Names, East Coast Stars, Zaboyon, Greenhouse Flowers, Johnny Donavan PR, Anthony Palmieri stylist, Tony Bowls evening wear, and finally, my husband Jim and my mom, Pamula Aguero. 

It was an amazing experience that I would not change for the world. I want to thank all of you for you love and support. This was a wild ride. 

Many blessings to all!

Amber Marchese