Cast Blog: #RHONJ

On Sprinkle Cookies

Amber Calls Out Andy Cohen

Dina: What am I Doing Here?

Amber: Is Dina Coldhearted?

Dina: "The Reunion was Very Hard to Watch"

Teresa: We Love Hard, We Fight Hard

Dina: The Ladybug Event was Perfection

Amber: I Felt I Like I Was Being Hazed

Melissa: Continue to Pray for Teresa's Family

Why Amber Shares Her Cancer Story

Dina: I Was Team Santa

Teresa: I Don't Blame Jim

Bobby's Unacceptable Behavior

Amber: Dina is Jealous

Melissa: "We are Heartbroken"

Dina Reacts to the Sentencing

Kathy Talks Kevin Jonas

Amber: Dina Was Planning a Blood Bath

Jim and Amber Were on Different Pages

Dina on Bobby's "Bizarre" Behavior

Amber Calls BS on Dina

Nicole: Words are So Powerful

Teresa: "Kudos to Dina!"

Teresa: I Love the Show, I Love My Fans

Praying for a Positive Outcome for Teresa

"Tipsy Melissa is My Spirit Animal"

Dina's Lose-Lose Situation

Jacqueline on Her Status with Teresa

Why Teresa Told Dina the Rumor

Amber on Her Cancer Scare

Teresa: There was an Agenda to Hurt My Family

Melissa: I Do Feel for Amber

Dina: Gia's Beautiful Inside and Out

Nicole: This is Not 'Jerry Springer'

Amber on Her Meltdown with Teresa

Amber's Emotional Call to Teresa

Teresa Thanks the Fans

Dina: Florida Will Be the New Scary Island

Teresa: I Wish I Never Heard the Rumor

Amber on the Shocking Rino Rumor

Victoria Gotti's Big No No

On Sprinkle Cookies

Melissa gives her side of the sprinkle cookie catastrophe.

Hi everyone! Hope everyone is well! I just made a big pot of escarole and beans, yum! Now I'm sitting down at my island to write to all of you! Gino is pulling on my leg, and Joey is eating a cookie. Typical day at the Gorga residence! Thank you all so much for your input on getting Antonia to sleep in her bed, I'm definitely going to try some of them. Joe and I were reading them together last week trying to decide which one to do! I want you all to know I read each and every one of your comments, so keep them coming!

So glad I got to show you all what Thanksgiving is like at my house! I have a huge family and I just want to say thank you to my mom, sisters, aunts, and cousins! I would be nothing without you guys! You are all so amazing! We take turns having holidays, and everyone always helps out. I really enjoy prepping everything with them and taking on the work load on together. Is there something about Thanksgiving that makes men sleepy? I don't know why they always take naps on this holiday. Oh let me not forget, we always watch the football game too. I love to entertain and have people over, Joe and I are known for that. The more the merrier! I spent two days prepping and cooking, and it was all worth it in the end. I cannot thank Kathy enough for her incredible deserts! Do you know how much time that must have taken? And she is happy to do it! She loves it, and she is extremely talented. Believe it or not, they tasted even better than they looked! We have never spent Thanksgiving at home together, this is the first time, but I did go on vacation with her and her family twice on Thanksgiving. I think it was confusing when I said it in my interview, I meant this year we were all going to be together with my family too! It's days like these that I feel so grateful for the life I live. Sometimes I sit and think, why me? Why am I so lucky to have all of this, a wonderful family, healthy children, and a great husband I'm in love with? But instead of wondering on days like Thanksgiving I say, "Thank you, God!" It reminds me to be a good person, and that's how I can show my thanks. 

I feel like you got to listen to Teresa's excuse as to why she threw away the cookies I brought her for Christmas. However, I'm going to have to say I think it was a pretty lame excuse. I do feel the need to explain what happened though. I was four or five months pregnant at Christmas last year, when we were going to Teresa's house. I went to Corrados, the same store you see me do my Thanksgiving shopping at to buy cookies to bring to her house. I saw these beautiful Christmas-looking sparkly cookies wrapped beautifully in paper that I couldn't take my eyes of off. Maybe it was because I was pregnant and wanted everything. I love that store, it's the best Italian store in the area! When I first got married I used to go all the time with my father-in-law, we would go shopping together a couple times a month and before every holiday! He taught me to love that store! He told me they have the best of everything. Anyway, we had to go to Teresa's house the next day after Christmas, because it was my in-laws' anniversary, and we were going over for cake. Teresa had some friends there, we were all in the kitchen cleaning up, and Teresa said to me in front of everyone that she threw my cookies away because they looked like they were from a supermarket and not a bakery. She said she doesn't like that type of cookie, and no one ate them. She said the next time I come to her house I should bring pignoli cookies from a bakery. I don't know if she was implying that I'm cheap or she just wanted to be mean. I also don't know if she has now decided that she is Queen Elizabeth! Maybe I'm wrong, but I thought it was rude, and I was embarrassed in front of her friends. I was also pregnant and that makes it even worse. I was taught to be thankful for anything someone brings to my house. I'm the kind of person that doesn't expect anything from anyone. I will say that when I went back the next day after Christmas for the anniversary dinner, I brought a beautiful chocolate cake from a bakery hoping to please her this time. For the record, I happen to love colorful Christmas sprinkle cookies!

OK, so why did I write "redone home?" Contrary to the rumors, I don't wish to expose my husband's family, but I do think I should explain this. First off let me say it is a beautiful redone home. Was it a dig? Yes! Teresa did live in that house for five years before they decided to put the addition on it. (I'm still confused why she said she skeeves out at living in other people's homes, because she did for five years.) I don't see what's wrong with that. What's wrong with making rooms bigger and adding a couple! Is it just me? Most people would love to live in that house. Did I know she would not like the wording, yes. What you will see in episodes to come is that she has been throwing digs at me since the day I came into this family. Why? I don't know. I could never figure it out, I could never figure out why she would say something so rude to me and then two minutes later smile and want to go to lunch. To be honest I've been confused about Teresa since the day I met her. I've decided not to list the digs that have been thrown at me first before I wrote that card. If they play out on the show they do, if they don't, they don't. Was redone the best choice of words, no. When I entered this family I put them first, I spent more time with Teresa and Joe's parents then I did my own. I loved them, and my family lived an hour and a half away. We spent almost every Sunday with them and we went out to dinner with Joe and Teresa and Kathy and Rich almost every weekend! Believe me I tried, I put his family first.

I will say I'm also happy they showed us at the housewarming party! Can we now put all those rumors to rest that Joe and I were mad for not being around the cameras? It's just simply not true.

I have to admit I'm a little sad today seeing how Joe Giudice was talking about me. I really don't understand that either. I've never done anything to hurt him, and I made him the godfather of my first born child, Antonia. I always wanted to make it fair between Joe's family and mine, so I picked Joe Giudice because my husband doesn't have a brother. I could have picked my brother-in-law first who was like a second father to me, but I didn't. I wanted us to all be a family together.

I love Joe very much and I know he appreciates my family, but there is something missing and that’s his family. I want him to be happy, he has mad me happy since the day I met him. I want him to spend the holidays with his family. At this point I will do anything in my power to get this fixed and have everyone work it out. When I say I will deal with anything I have to so he can have his family I mean it. Anything. I will stop at nothing to fix this. 

About my father, Anthony John Marco, may he rest in peace, and I hope he's looking down on me and proud of who I am. I know what it is like to lose a family member, it is not pretty. I still deal with it every single day. I am still mad at him for not having his seatbelt on that day he got into the car accident. I know what it is like to not have him walk me down the aisle, not see this beautiful house I live in, not see me graduate college, never meet my babies and never meet Joe. I want Joe and his family to realize how lucky they are that they all still have each other, and they can all still spend time together. The clock keeps ticking and the hours keep on going. Time is being wasted. It's time to fix this.

Sorry to end the blog on a sad note, but it is what it is.

The crazy mechanical bull my husband decided to add to our Thanksgiving was from www.partyperfectrentals.com.

The gorgeous decorations you see on my doors and on my tables are from a very talented lady named Donna. She can make anything! To get in touch with her you can go to her website. www.homesweethomeshop.net.

Check in on my website, http://www.melissagorga.co. Just put a new blog up yesterday. I am getting so many questions about my makeup and skincare, I answered a few!

Follow me on my new Twitter handle @melissagorga and on Facebook http://www.facebook.com/melissagorga.co.

I hope everyone has a magnifico giornata!

Xoxo

Melissa

 

Amber: Is Dina Coldhearted?

Amber Marchese dishes on her first reunion and why Dina Manzo confuses her.

Hello Housewife friends!  Welcome to the jungle baby! My first reunion was a wild ride. Call me sick and twisted, but I had an unbelievable time at the reunion when most, I have been warned, dread it. I felt like it was “The Great Purge” and when I went home I was felt relieved of any built up tension. I don’t care if anyone has a grudge against me, my slate is clean and I harbor no ill feelings towards anyone. I love to argue my point, and I truly stood by all of my convictions this season, so I was ready to say exactly what was on my mind, and then some. 

I know the twins and I went at one another pretty hard, but that is what the reunion is all about. It is an opportunity to get it all out and potentially understand one another's position better. Then we can each make our own decisions as to where we want to go with our relationships. I am very much the type of person that can say some of the meanest things and sling mud, but hug it out at the end forgetting anything negative that was said. It just rolls off my back. I actually think it is healthier to say what needs to be said, and then move on.

One thing I did question after the reunion was if Dina actually has a heart or if I should start calling her the Tin Man. I actually have not figured her out yet. Is she really just a coldhearted bitch, or has she been hurt so many times that she has become warped and jaded. I feel I don’t owe anyone any reason as to why I call cancer “the cancer,” but I will give it once more anyhow. “The cancer” is “the monster” to me. It is a way for me to take away its power and to minimize it. “It” destroys lives, so “it” does not deserve a name. It is just “the cancer” -- it was “the monster” or “the dragon.” Although Dina claims to have an understanding of how devastating cancer is to a family, her actions and blatant lack of empathy proves otherwise.

In addition, I did not think it was appropriate for me to interject into family quarrels at the reunion; however, this is something that I feel strongly about. I have met Jaqueline and I have spoken to her on many occasions. In the very short time that I have gotten to know Jaqueline, I know and have empathy with the struggles she has caring for Nicholas. I felt that Dina’s interpretation of her nephew was callous and completely out of touch with reality. The only thing that keeps playing in my mind is, "You know nothing John Snow."  No, thank God, he is not hooked up to machines with cancer; however, what the Laurita family goes through is extremely difficult on a day to day basis that will continue on for a lifetime. It is emotionally and financially devastating. Although, Dina "visits" children with cancer, at the end of her visit she gets to go home, leaving it behind and goes on with her daily life. Since Dina does work with children with cancer, I pray that she can abstain from a self-absorbed lifestyle and become a loving, involved aunt.