I just couldn't wait for dessert!
Well the fated dinner party at Ramona's house happened, and it went down. I swear I was going to try to wait for dessert as I promised, but I just could not help myself. As I said previously, I spent the whole summer and part of the fall listening to Sonja badmouth me, my family, my boyfriend and her disgust with me setting Lu up with Tom. It came to a head when the night before Ramona's dinner, Sonja gave YET ANOTHER INTERVIEW to a large group of women, and yes, it was quoted, carrying on her slandering ways and trying to draw much-needed attention to herself. She even admits in the show she was badmouthing me, and it was sort of a revenge for not inviting her to the one night in the Berkshires almost a year ago. So if she is going to continue to act childish and defamatory, then I am going have to amend Michelle Obamas' statement "You go low I go high" and add a much needed Dorindism: "You go low, I go lower."
I just couldn't take it anymore, and we all know Sonja has had her colorful past. I was not acting like a child throwing a tantrum (condescending again). I was acting like a women that was hurt. Sonja and I should be getting along. We are both at a place in our lives that we didn't expect. Just this weekend I was going through pictures of my life with Richard—our wedding, trips, parties, Washington events, and I had a little cry and moment of "What the hell happened?" But sadly life changes and takes its twists and turns, and we have no choice but to keep it moving and try to make the best of it. Sonja thought she would be settled in her townhouse, daughter off to boarding school, and she would live happily ever after with Mr. Morgan, but life happened. We all have these life earthquakes, and if you are lucky enough to survive them, you have to go with the change and support each other in making a new life. This is why the next morning I was cautious but willing, based on Sonja's temperature to be open about everything and go forward. I said what I needed to say, and I'm hoping we can press the reset button and be supportive to each other. Thankfully the temp was one of forgiveness, and the morning sun and duck dance allowed us all to start fresh.
On a side note, I was so appreciative that Lu and Carole supported me and understood my frustrations. Thank you. Sometimes a blow up is needed to get it all out there—it's not always a bad thing!
As far as me saying to Candice Bushnel, "Not well, bitch," that was not directed towards her at all. She caught me right after it all went down, and I was only reacting to her question. I just met Candice, the famous writer that penned Sex and the City using herself as the inspiration for the main character, Carrie. I think, if I'm not mistaken, this argument is nothing compared to her experiences in NYC over the years.
I was happy to meet up with Tinsley alone. I really like her honesty and desire to put it all behind her and start fresh. As I said to her, none of us are perfect, and it's all about doing today! Life is very forgiving and a deep breath, a sorry and a good old-fashioned prayer can help us all to start over again.
Finally, a happy end to a tumultuous episode: lunch with John at Madame Paulette. We haven't see much of John this season so far. Reality TV historically has been hard on couples, and John and I are no different. We have decided to keep our relationship ours. I also wanted to really focus on my relationship with the girls without any noise about John. I am so proud of John, his business Madame Paulette, and I'm excited about his new Madame Paulette product line and universal stain kit. In fact, I am trying to get a pice of the action and start getting some commission on these products!
Well, until next week!