I know our blogs are to recap what has happened on this week's episode, but to be honest with you, the show is the last thing on my mind right now. For today's blog, I want to share with you what is weighing heavy on my heart.
I would like to start my blog by saying this has been the most devestating week of my family's life, and I want to thank my family, friends, therapist, fans and complete strangers for their support. I have gotten so many messages from people sharing their similar stories and it really has helped me get through some tough hours. To be accused of exaggerated and false allegations is every mother's/father's nightmare. I would not wish it on anyone and my heart goes out to all those parents that are dealing with the exact issue. As I always say...DIVORCE DOESN'T HURT KIDS, ANGRY/BITTER PARENTS HURT KIDS.
My children are my life and I love and cherish them with all my heart. It's a love that only a parent knows. All I ever wanted to be was a mother, just like my mom and my grandmother. I even wrote in my blog that even though it is hard to share your children 50-percent of the time, I believe that divorced children should have both parents in their lives. I have always told the children that it would be great if their dad could live right across the street so they could see us both every day. It's unfortunate that he doesn't feel the same way.
It truly is ironic that this episode aired while all this is happening. I had NO idea that what was filmed six months ago, my pain of sharing my kids, would be what I am dealing with today. What most people didn't know is that my relationship with my 15-year-old, Sidney, was strained and she decided that she wanted to live with her Dad. This came as a total shock to me! Sure, I knew things were not prefect and we didn't always see eye-to-eye, but I thought it was her age? I had the same issues with my mother when I was her age. I often wonder if my parents had been divorced if I too would have ran to my dad? I was in my 20s when my parents divorced and it was extremely hard on me. I choose my mom's side and didn't talk to my dad for years. That has now come to bite me in the butt, and I think about the pain I caused my dad all those years.