Cast Blog: #PUMPRULES

Kristen Spills on her Breakup with Tom

Katie: It's Insulting and Frustrating

Tom: Stassi Is Like a Fallen Dictator

Our Producer Shares Secrets From Peter's Date

Stassi: It's Hard to Watch

Lisa: Stassi Likes to Control Everything

Our Producer Got Hit With a Sandwich in Miami

Kristen: I Wanted Validation From Tom

Scheana: I Shouldn't Have Let Kristen Come

Lisa: Kristen Missed the Point Entirely

Jax: John Takes Care of Everybody

The #PumpRules Miami Trip in 7 GIFs

Tom on Jax: There is Barely Any Trust There

Behind-the-Scenes Secrets From Miami

Ariana Takes the Positivity Express

Lisa Doesn't Get Those Penis Straws

Scheana Is Happy Katie's Free

Tom's Main Miami Objective

Katie Wasn't Letting Jax and Kristen Ruin Miami

Our Producer Shares Secrets From That Trip

Tom Has Partied Enough for Two Lifetimes

Ariana: Facts Are Facts

Scheana Has Nothing Left to Say to Stassi

Lisa: You Would Think Jax Wouldn't Lie

Katie: Stassi's Island Really Is Shrinking

Katie: Tom Wasn't Following Through

A SURver's Guide to Male Grooming

Jax: I'm Getting a Taste of My Own Medicine

Our Producer Shares Scheana's Wedding Invite

4 Tom Sandoval GIFs for When You've Had Enough

Lisa: What Really Pissed Me Off

Scheana: I Don't Need Kristen

Ariana: Kristen is a Giant "Preying" Mantis

Katie: Stassi Overstepped Boundaries

Scheana: It's Sad How Few Friends Stassi Has

Our Producer Shares the Dirt on New Girl Vail

Tom: Kristen Manipulates Things

Tom Schwartz to Himself: Wake Up ---hole

Lisa Doesn't Want Scheana's Advice

Kristen: This Episode Was Tough to Watch

Scheana: I Don't Spread Rumors

Kristen Spills on her Breakup with Tom

Kristen tells all about Tom's painful decision to walk away and her subsequent hookup with 21-year-old James.

This Reunion was like the end to an era for our group. One year ago, I never would have pictured my life the way that it is now.

In mid-November, Tom had gone out with friends one night and didn't come home. After waking up several times throughout the night/morning, he suddenly appeared in bed around 10 am. After finding a photo booth strip on our living room floor of he and Ariana, I went through his phone (not proud) and found all of the evidence that I needed to prove that he was at her house around 7 am. I asked him simply what he did the night before, why he didn't come home, and if he was with Ariana. As you can imagine, he lied. He claimed he did not see her and was at Scheana's all night. Why lie if there is nothing to lie about? My heart sunk. After a lot of tears and some arguing, he finally admitted the truth and that they had once again "kissed." Now that time has passed, the details of their affair aren't as important, but I know in my gut that it was more than a kiss.

Pathetically, I continued to convince myself that this was something we could work through when Tom put the final nail in the coffin and broke up with me. Over the course of the next few weeks, we were hot and cold. . .still living together and I was in complete denial about our breakup. He still needed to borrow my car, get rides to places and once in a while we would go out together with our friends. I convinced myself that if I gave him the space that he had asked for, he would eventually miss me and we would get back together.

As you can imagine, I was a wreck. I battled with knowing that this was probably for the best and convincing myself that he was the one for me. I want to take a second to thank Shay and especially Scheana for selflessly being the most amazing friends to me during this time. As hard as it was for Scheana to be in the middle man position, she didn't condone the cheating and was there for me at the drop of a hat. A few weeks after the break up, Tom packed a few bags and started staying with Scheana and Shay. I think this was partially to take his space away from me and also to reiterate that we were really over. As I said at the Reunion, the only thing I can thank Tom for is leaving. Out of sight, out of mind was really the only way that I would be able to start becoming independent and be strong enough to be without him.

Tom and I are both guilty of pointing fingers and playing the victim in our relationship. I can repeat ten times over that I don't condone my infidelity and that two wrongs don't make a right, ever. To set the record straight: I did have an emotional/sexual affair with someone years ago and I did sleep with Jax. Tom cheated with five girls in five and a half years.



In hindsight, it's obvious that Tom and I should have broken up a long time ago. We both had so much resentment; there really was no bouncing back. For so many years, I didn't feel like his girlfriend. I felt like his mom, his personal assistant, his maid. I focused more on his day-to-day then I did my own. He didn't have a car for a year at a time on two separate occasions, so it was my job to make sure he could get around, even if it meant sacrificing my own schedule. I would make sure he was up in the morning, on time for appointments. I would open his mail, pay the bills, clean the house and basically wipe his a--. I'm aware that these were choices that I made and I wasn't forced into them, but I cared about him so much that I was willing to sacrifice my happiness to make his life easier. The fun and the attraction dissipated over time and it felt like more of a business arrangement than a relationship.

Back to December. . .I want to be very clear that James was not "Tom's friend" who stole me away as a ploy for revenge. James was our friend and after our break-up, Tom stopped coming around. He fell off of the map and was only hanging out with Ariana, Scheana, and Shay. I didn't plan for James and I to start dating. He is an amazing friend to me and I truly thank him for giving me the tough love I needed after the break up. He put his foot down against my tears and told me to move on the way that Tom already had. He wasn't trying to woo me in to bed or screw Tom over -- it was a natural transition that neither of us expected or planned. He became one of my best friends and the chemistry was undeniable.

After Tom found out about James and I were seeing each other, he gave James an ultimatum that he could either be friends with Tom and stop speaking to me or vice versa. I was home for the holidays when James called me to say that the situation was too complicated and that he would have to stop talking to me in order to reconcile his friendship with Tom. A few days later when I got back to LA, James and I naturally fell back in to place and he made his decision. It is easy for Tom to play the victim in this situation -- that I "stole" his bandmate when the truth is, Tom was using James to produce his tracks. As Tom's ex-girlfriend, I owed him nothing. He had already moved on to a relationship with a girl he had cheated on me with. It was not my responsibility to deny my happiness out of sensitivity for him anymore.

The way that I felt at the Reunion is different than how I feel today. The wound of seeing Tom and Ariana together was still slightly fresh for me although I was beginning to accept it. I thought it was tasteless and tacky for them to throw it in my face the way that they did. I also think that Tom just wanted a reaction out of me so that he could reiterate how emotional I could be. Although I had begun seeing someone else, it was hard to see my ex-boyfriend of almost six years with someone else -- especially the one person I had been so insecure about for so many years. No s---, I was insecure. No s---, I was emotional.

It's laughable that they label me as "crazy" when every fear that I had regarding Tom and Ariana became true. I don't wish them unhappiness, but I don't wish them well. I try to let go of my anger because it isn't serving any purpose other than taking time away from my happiness and Tom doesn't deserve that satisfaction. At this point, I don't ever see Tom and me getting back together. As difficult as he is currently trying to make my life, I do care about his well-being and hopefully one day we can be friends.

Read more about:

Stassi: It's Hard to Watch

Stassi talks about Peter and Vail's date and the demise of her friendship with Katie.

How do the SURvers really feel about what goes in (and outside) of the restaurant? Each week we're asking the 'Vanderpump Rules' cast to tell you how they really feels about all the infighting, hookups, drama, and backstabbing. Get a closer look at how the felt about the biggest moments and blow ups by watching the video blog below -- or scroll down to read a full transcription.

Hi, I'm Stassi Schroeder, and welcome to my video blog.
I totally forgot that Kristina sprung it on me that everyone was back from Miami. I think she did this on purpose, because she knows I would not have driven her to work if I knew that information. Sneaky little devil, sneaky little devil.
I thought it was really cute to watch Peter and Vail flirt. Peter's a stud muffin! He's got it going on. I'd like to see them together. It's always awkard watching two people flirt for the first time. I felt like I was in first grade watching somebody's first kiss. Is it weird that I said first grade? Because people normally don't get first kisses in first grade. Maybe I grew up in a skanky school.
OK, watching Vail and Peter's date was so uncomfortable. That was so awkward. I really thought that in the beginning of this episode when I saw them flirting that they would make such a cute couple, but no, you can't, no. A first date should not be like that.


I really appreciate just how honest Kristina was with Katie, and she doesn't sugarcoat anything, but Katie and I have been best friends for a while, and just because I say things in the heat of the moment, it doesn't mean that I ultimately don't want things to work out.


It's really hard to watch that. It really makes me sad. I don't understand where Katie's anger comes from, because I feel like I was the one on the defensive. Like I didn't do anything. I sat back, and she decided to change her mind about things and not tell me and embarrass me by not telling me, and what was I supposed to do? I think that both of us knew that at that point our friendship was over.
I'm Stassi Schroeder, and thank you for watching my video blog.

Read more about: