Kristen Doute

Kristen tells all about Tom's painful decision to walk away and her subsequent hookup with 21-year-old James.

on Feb 14

The way that I felt at the Reunion is different than how I feel today. The wound of seeing Tom and Ariana together was still slightly fresh for me although I was beginning to accept it. I thought it was tasteless and tacky for them to throw it in my face the way that they did. I also think that Tom just wanted a reaction out of me so that he could reiterate how emotional I could be. Although I had begun seeing someone else, it was hard to see my ex-boyfriend of almost six years with someone else -- especially the one person I had been so insecure about for so many years. No s---, I was insecure. No s---, I was emotional.

It's laughable that they label me as "crazy" when every fear that I had regarding Tom and Ariana became true. I don't wish them unhappiness, but I don't wish them well. I try to let go of my anger because it isn't serving any purpose other than taking time away from my happiness and Tom doesn't deserve that satisfaction. At this point, I don't ever see Tom and me getting back together. As difficult as he is currently trying to make my life, I do care about his well-being and hopefully one day we can be friends.