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BravoCon 2019 The Real Housewives of Atlanta

Why Porsha Williams' First Season on RHOA Left Her in Tears

The RHOA mom opens up about her life and who she was back in Season 5 of RHOA at BravoCon 2019.

By Jocelyn Vena

If Porsha Williams could turn back time, she'd tell her Season 5 self (which marked her first season on the show) to not take herself so seriously. The Atlanta mama and radio host opened about joining The Real Housewives of Atlanta back in Season 5, and what that first season was like for her when she appeared at BravoCon 2019.

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"When I first started, I called both of them [Cynthia Bailey and Nene Leakes] crying. I was crying hysterically because I had never seen myself on television," she said. "I had never seen or knew how I would come off to the public and so I was very critical of myself."

All these seasons later, Porsha, who is still sharing all her ups and downs — and her new life as a mom —on Season 12 of RHOA, says that she finally became comfortable letting go. "And it wasn't until over the years, I started just letting the cameras see who I really was," she noted, before breaking down just why she was more open to being open to sharing her life with viewers (clip above).

Life has certainly changed a lot for Porsha over the years. When she first joined the ATL crew, she was married to former football pro Kordell Stewart before they split in 2013. Since then, she's evolved into a business woman, been open about her struggles to find love (currently, she's engaged to Dennis McKinley), and is a doting mom to little Pilar Jhena.

Check out more highlights from BravoCon 2019, below.

BravoCon 2019's Wildest Moments
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