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Shannon: Tamra's Lies Are Mind Boggling

Shannon can't believe Tamra and Heather could keep lying when they have both been caught.

Lots to talk about. Let's just start...

There is nothing "kooky" about why I went to Heather's house. I asked Tamra whether she relayed any of our confidential conversation to Heather and she denied it. How many times could I ask her? The only other person who could confirm what I already knew was Heather. Terry was not present at Heather's lunch when my marriage was a topic of conversation, so I continue to be perplexed at his "involvement" in an issue that has nothing to do with him. I never said that Heather "told the world." She discussed my marriage with a table of women which was inappropriate and that is what I told Vicki.

Heather knew that I was coming to her house and any suggestion to the contrary is just another way to "spin" things. I apologized to her for raising my voice to her at my Christmas party. I even apologized for yelling, which I actually didn't do. She talks to Vicki about it, and she brings it up at Lizzie's party. Clearly she has not let it go. It is so interesting to hear Heather and Terry describe the incident and they always say, "When Shannon left our house. . ." I was kicked out.

David and I are home from Mexico and are In a good place. We are committed to each other and our family. David is chaperoning Sophie on her class trip to Italy. Both David and I had limited interaction with our fathers, so it is so nice to see his efforts to change the patterns we grew up with. He is an amazing father!

It is nice to see Vicki have compassion for me. What is disturbing is Tamra not taking responsibility for starting all of this nonsense between Heather and I.

En route to Lizzie's party, David and I discuss that I am not at excited about seeing the Dubrows. First of all, the last I heard from Heather was a text minutes after I left her house. There was no way I was going to respond to her text after being kicked out of her home. She never apologized in the text for telling me to leave her home and I wasn't going to set myself up.

It is interesting to hear Heather's commentary on her way to the party saying that I yell at her every time I see her -- "my house, her house, my parties, her parties." The first time you ever see me yell at her is in this episode because I have had enough. I didn't yell at her at Javier's, never ever raised my voice at the hoedown, and apologized for my raised voice at my Christmas party. I don't like to be accused of doing things I didn't do.

David and I have been bothered by something that Tamra has said to both of us on numerous occasions. She has told us that Terry Dubrow said he wanted to "Take the Beadors down." We didn't think she was serious at first, but once she mentioned it a couple times, we started to wonder whether it was true. We weren't going to discuss it with the Dubrows without getting confirmation from Tamra one more time that Terry had said it. She denied ever saying the statement to me that Terry wanted to "take the Beadors down." I was absolutely frustrated. I was just coming off of a devastating betrayal from Tamra, so I couldn't believe that she was going to lie once again. Two things could have happened -- Tamra made it up in the first place (which would make it a lie) or she lied to me and Terry really did make the statement to her. Either way, Tamra is not telling the truth. . .again. Mind boggling to me. I am not making it up and would have no reason to.

And then lo and behold Tamra decides to bring up this non-existent statement at the dinner table of all places. It makes no sense. And further, I cannot believe that Terry had the audacity to confront David and I at the dinner table with 12 people. I love that David defended me -- so chivalrous and loving.

You see Tamra in her commentary adamantly denying than she ever said Terry wanted to "take the Beadors down." Then you see Vicki confirm that Tamra also told her about the "take the Beadors down" comment as well. Tamra has not been honest. You cannot discern when she is telling the truth or not.

You see me apologize AGAIN to Heather for raising my voice to her at my Christmas party. Clearly Heather can't let it go because after the apology at the table, I am attacked for "yelling" once again.

I could not believe that Tamra asked David to go outside. I have known my husband for over 16 years and I have never known him to have a confrontation with another female. I am blown away that Tamra thought she could somehow convince my husband that betraying my confidence and telling Heather was somehow in my best interest. And then she calls Heather and Terry into the discussion. At this point, I am done. This is not how I communicate or deal with people. Once again Heather brings up my "yelling" at her and that is the last straw for me. I am human. I mean it when I say "you will all see the truth." You do see the truth.

On a lighter note, I am on the thin side, but I have never exercised in my life. You can hear me in this episode saying that back in my day, you just had to be thin -- not toned or defined. I have been in Hawaii with David for the last nine days and yesterday, we thought it would be fun to try paddle boarding. David was insistent that I wear a bikini, despite my reservations about my flabbiness and I did. A photographer was outside our hotel and took some incredibly hideous photos of me which are now on the internet. When I return home from Hawaii, I am going to post those photos on my website and others as my "before" photos and I am growing to do my best to tone up this 50 year old body once and for all! You can go to my website starting next week at ShannonBeador.com to see my progress.

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