Jeff Lewis has been sharing the intimate details of his breakup with Gage Edward with fans since he first announced their separation on his Radio Andy show Jeff Lewis Live on January 31. But the Flipping Out designer got more candid than ever before about the real reason the relationship ended after 10 years.
Judge Lauren Lake, who appeared as a guest on Jeff's radio show during the February 5 episode, asked him to explain the reason why he and Gage decided to break up after all that time together. "I am 90 percent responsible for why we're here. I emotionally abandoned him last year. I was a complete prick. I turned on him. I pushed him away. All I can tell you, it was my worst year. I experienced great loss," Jeff explained, citing the end of his friendship with Jenni Pulos-Nassos and the passing of his grandmother Patty in September. "There was great loss, great loss, and I did not handle it well. And I self-destructed, I really did. I didn't even recognize myself, frankly. And so by the time that I tried to correct the situation, which wasn't until January 1 of this year, it was too late. That is the truth. I take responsibility."
Jeff also said that, unbeknownst to him, he and Gage weren't on the same page about marriage. "I've had a fear of commitment. I've had a fear of taking the relationship to the next level. We've had a lot of communication in the last month, and he told me, which I didn't know this, that he really wanted to get married in year five or six of our relationship," Jeff shared. "And I never knew that because that was never communicated to me, and apparently that was really important to him. So there's all these things that are coming up now, but it just feels too late."
Even if it wasn't enough to save his relationship, Jeff said that he has grown within the past month. "Believe it or not, I've changed a lot in the last 30 days," he said. "There are things that I've done and said that I would never do again to anyone, any person."
No matter what the future holds for him and Gage, Jeff said that he will come away from this experience a changed man. "It could just be one of my biggest lessons in life, really, truly," he said. "And moving forward, there's nothing you could do. You just live and you learn, and you don't repeat the pattern."
Jeff first confirmed that he and Gage had separated and are living in separate residences at the end of January. Since then, Jeff has kept fans updated on his post-breakup life, including revealing that he and Gage have gotten back into the dating game and sharing how their 2-year-old daughter, Monroe, has been handling the split. Jeff has shown his appreciation for all of his loved ones that have reached out during his time of need, including several members of the Bravo family.