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Brandi: I Know How Mrs. Vanderpump Rolls

Brandi reflects on how used she feels by Lisa when Scheana comes around and why she

First I want to say so sorry for missing my blog last week. As many of you know I have been on a whirl wind book tour for my new book Drinking and Dating. By the way, thank all of you for making it a New York Times best seller!

Watching this week's episode was very hard for me as it took me back to a place of sadness and angst. Kyle knows the truth about the tabloids -- case closed. I still don't quite understand why Kyle doesn't acknowledge the fact that I warned her in advance about the stories coming out in Star magazine because I had a friend that worked there. I myself have gone through a similar situation and I would have loved a warning or a heads up.

On the JR front, he told me he loved me, so I invited him to Puerto Rico. JR said he had to work and couldn't afford a vacation at that time. Once I arrived in Puerto Rico, he let me know that he decided to take a last-minute, unplanned trip to Italy!!! Um, he doesn't do anything last minute or unplanned. While JR was in Italy, he met and had an affair with a Spanish woman. The end. I began dating Drew Carter, and, although we are not together now, we remain very close friends and still see one another often.

I knew the moment Lisa was home she would run to Carlton because that's her M.O., and she needed and ally. I really don't think it was fair for her to involve Carlton in issues that had absolutely nothing to do with her. I am close friends with Carlton, and I have never once spoken to her about my issues with Lisa -- because they don't involve her and I know that she and Lisa are friends and I would never disrupt a friendship. When I saw Carlton at the Beverly Hills party, I instantly knew Lisa had been in her ear. I know how Mrs. Vanderpump rolls.

On to my issues with Lisa -- I truly just want to have an honest conversation with her. As we all know I am not on Vanderpump Rules. I have repeatedly asked Lisa to not bring Scheana around me anymore. She promised she wouldn't -- but she did and without even a warning. It made me start to question our friendship and my role in her life. Was I simply part of her plan???

My issues with Lisa are completely separate then everyone else's, so although you may think it looked like we were ganging up on her, we absolutely were not. I truly love Lisa and I always will, but she needs to realize it isn't cool to keep putting Scheana around me.

Here are the facts: Scheana has been BFF with Pandy for five years. The drama of my divorce took place five years ago. Scheana never worked at SUR until the night of our final party. Scheena was a Villa Blanca employee. Why was she at SUR? Lisa is incredibly close to all of her employees, as you see on her show. How on earth did she not know about Scheana and Edddie? Why the f--- was Scheana at SUR that night? Also if Lisa didn't know why would she constantly ask me to interact with this woman that reminded me of the most horrific time in my life. Does Lisa care about me, or am I just part of Vanderpump Rules?

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