This season of Below Deck Mediterranean was a difficult one for Hannah Ferrier right from the beginning as she figured out how to work with her new stews and navigated existing workplace relationships. 

But it was Chef Hindrigo "Kiko" Lorran's departure that really took an emotional toll on the chief stew. "Kiko was really the only person on the crew that I had a bond with, and he was keeping me sane," Hannah opened up during the Below Deck Mediterranean Season 5 After Show, which you can view, above. "So when he left, like especially in the way that he left, it was just devastating to see someone you care about break down like that."

We saw how hard Hannah took the news of Kiko's departure even before he officially left The Wellington. "Hannah's the type of person, I think, where the emotions can just kind of bubble up, I would say, without her even realizing it," said Josh Brown, Vice President, Current Production at Bravo, in the Below Deck Med After Show.

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Below Deck Med executive producer Nadine Rajabi added that it was Hannah's closeness to Kiko, coupled with what led to his dismissal, that tugged at the chief stew's heartstrings.

"You know, it was hard to see. It was really hard to see, because Hannah is very much an empath, and she cares a lot and has a very big heart. And so that was the one person in the crew that she really connected with," she explained in the Below Deck Med After Show. "And to see somebody that you're really close to, that you work with, go down that way — and then also, she took on a little bit of that responsibility of the Vegas menu, which was actually not her fault at all — I think that's what really played into that."

Hannah shared that she "was in such a bad place" at this point in the season. "People don't sometimes understand, when you're working in an environment like that and you have no way to release your stress, like, you can't go home and have a bitch to your boyfriend or go out with the girls and have a glass of wine and get it off your chest. You are stuck on a boat; there is no way to get out," she said. "Kiko, my only buddy on the boat, had been fired. My heart was broken with how he left and how upset he was. It was just a very bad situation."

Want more Below Deck Med? New episodes air every Monday at 9/8c or catch up on the entire series through the Bravo app.

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