You really know who your true friends are when you are going through a rough time. The girls reached out to me after my arrest in various ways, from texts to phone calls, and I appreciated everything they did to make me feel better. Even now, I grapple with understanding exactly what happened. As Bethenny said, “Nothing good happens after midnight.” Amen. My plan was to spend a couple of nights with a girlfriend, then head up to Jupiter to spend Christmas with my brother’s family before heading to South America for a friend’s wedding. Palm Beach is a small town, and I found myself going to all the same places I went to with Tom. I was arrested at the same hotel where I had a brunch that concluded our wedding weekend. Although I knew before I left NYC that I hadn’t processed my emotions about my divorce, I didn’t seek professional help. Instead, I was self-medicating to kill the pain…never a good idea! I hit a wall in Palm Beach, and the impact of my actions made me realize that I had better deal with my issues before I hurt someone or myself.
One of the best decisions I made in my life was to attend Futures in Tequesta, Florida. I felt like I reconnected with my soul there, and I did a lot of healing. My mother, my family, and my friends have been incredibly positive, and I feel like I don’t have to go through this alone. I know it’s weird to say this, but I’m incredibly thankful for what happened, because it made me come to a full stop so that I could take care of myself, which I was not doing. Also, I’m truly sorry for what happened during my arrest, and I want everyone to know that I have a tremendous amount of respect for the Palm Beach police department and for all first responders.
On a much lighter note, according to Sonja, raw bars are the new vegan! Love her, and I love you all too.
Until next week, let your friends know how much you care in the good times and the not-so-good times.